What Should I Do?-pregnantmae18

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Hello friends. I'm writing this story from the phone, so I apologize if I made a spelling mistake, etc. I just want to ask you a question. I'm a 20-year-old girl, I'm in college, and I have a seasonal job. I dare say I'm quite patient, but lately I just can't stand it. I work with my family in our restaurant. I have been working there every summer since I was 14, simply because it is difficult to survive the winter at sea with one season. And a season. My problem is that I am always late for work, with 10-40 minutes. At the expense of my delay, I do not take a break, arbitrarily, and I have never worked until the end of my working hours. I always stayed until we closed the site. Although my position is a bartender, I help in the kitchen and sink non-stop. That is, a general worker. Well, all my life I couldn't fix my sleep. I'm writing the story now at 3:30 before I go to bed. I work 10-12 hours a day, and my family always finds fault with me, regardless of my tasks and the fact that I help everywhere. They shout at me from the other side, insult me, I even dare to say that precisely because I am from a family, working 10-12 hours, I receive BGN 1,200. I did not complain about the money or the working hours. But I can't explain to them that I go to the restaurant all day and I just can't wake up in time, no matter how hard I try. The fact is that I'm in the restaurant from 12 to 00 and when I get home I want some time for myself. I just stand and listen to music or write to friends or drive. If I go to bed the moment I get home, I won't succeed because I've become hyperactive. I stay awake with my eyes closed. It is very tough for me, that everyone notices only the negative part - the fact that I'm late. And no one wants to appreciate my work. It hurts to scream at me every day. I don't want to quarrel with anyone, I want to work calmly. But I can't rest for the aforementioned reason. So I'm late and this vicious circle ensues. I work as a bartender myself, respectively, as he leaves the bar and will weld it, so I do not allow myself to leave before my last glass and ashtray are washed. Give me advice on what to do. It's very hard for me, I'm trying my best, I just can't stand this daily mental torment anymore. And it hurts me the most that they behave like that with a member of the family, and the strangers / the rest of the staff / will take down a few more stars. I apologize for the long story .. I just had to tell someone at last .. I know it seems childish to you, but it hurts. It hurts every day to know that I have failed again. Thank you, good night.

Last Updated
August 30, 2020
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pregnantmae18

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