Despair

The Story

Hello from me too .. I am 24 years old, I am just entering real life, and I am already desperate. I don't know what to do .. I have been a graduate for almost a year, but I never managed to find a job in the specialty, although I knew at the very beginning that the specialty I studied is not very reliable here in Bulgaria, I studied it with desire. I changed 2 jobs, and I could not agree with my colleagues (or they with me), in both places I was the youngest and although I have a university degree, it was felt that there is some difference between us (for both jobs my diploma had no force). One thing is said in the interview, after a while new obligations start to be added and of course the salary did not change. This strained me, exhausted me (they spoke for 9 hours on foot) and I began to slowly defend my positions - I talked to the manager, that at the interview we did not agree to do so many things - to deliver goods to other sites, to clean / tidy OK, given that other companies in this field have a person for cleaning / tidying, consulting, sales and delivery and everyone gets paid for this activity, I was assigned all these tasks, and the salary was one. I said that I applied for a certain position, not for everyone.

The manager tried to justify himself by saying that everyone helps as much as they can, etc., and in the following days our relations were strained, as our colleagues said "if you have any complaints, contact the boss". They are about 10 to 15 years older than me, I was not skeptical that we would not have common topics, but we never found a common topic of conversation. When there were no customers, they entered the rest room, in which there are 2 chairs and I can't go and sit on the ground to get involved in the topics for children, what will be prepared for dinner, etc. And when I allowed myself to go sit on one of these 2 chairs, I immediately wanted to do some work? !! I felt like a thief ... But anyway. After 2-3 days a colleague called me / before work / - go to our other site to take what you are and bring it here, where I said that this I don't get into my duties, but I will go ... And she angrily answered me "you have a boss" and I said "okay". I went, took it and took it away. Neither they greeted me, nor I greeted them. After a few hours one came almost to me and on high heels in front of customers told me "at work, I'm talking to you, I told you to bring me what you are", I had not heard him call me, whereupon I got angry and honestly ashamed that he was talking to me like that in front of the clients and I answered "it's good that you tell me I'm at work!"

Then an hour later the boss came and told me that they had told him that "I haven't listened to them" and we don't understand each other. His words were, "I have to fire you." It was hard for me because no one wanted to hear my version and try to understand me, but I showed no weakness and said OK ... Elsewhere we were 3 girls, about one year old and a man about 35 years old. We became friends with him and it was fun and enjoyable for me until the other girls started telling him that it was not right for him to separate us, that is, they felt isolated. He used to praise me in front of them and in front of the manager, my colleagues didn't like that ... One day I went to work and one of my colleagues was nervous and quarreled with this colleague, the scandal continued even after I left. I was trying to focus and do my job, but I heard him say, "Come on, tell her what you said about her yesterday, not to make her kind eyes and not talk to her behind her back." Whereupon I looked at her and tried "What have I done to you that you are talking about me?" She was ashamed (maybe) and stroked my hair and said Nothing darling, nothing ... And immediately smiled and said to the colleague Abe, let's not fight and their scandal stopped, we were silent for about 40 minutes and she had to leave because her shift was over, and after she left, my colleague told me what she said about me - that he praised me a lot, and there was nothing to praise me for not doing work for 2 stotinki, etc. She asked me not to tell her anything .. I called the manager and told her I had found another job and left.

This is my experience with colleagues and jobs. I have several "girlfriends", with one we only talk on the phone (she is from another city) when she has time and is not with her boyfriend ... and with the other we rarely see each other because she lives with her boyfriend and has other priorities, which is understandable ... I'm lonely, I don't have a friend, I don't know if I even want to have, because I'm afraid I'll go through the same stages again ... I had several relationships that ruined me. I don't know if I could take it yet. I am in love and naive and I always do my best in relationships, but after a while it becomes clear that we do not want the same things. and with the soul. I don't know what to do with my life, sometimes I ask myself the question “why do you take a place when you do not contribute anything?” I am a half-orphan, I cannot feel complete happiness and comfort at home. I'm shy and I find it really hard to trust people, but I don't think I'm a bad person. I am thankful to God that I am healthy! But why isn't it going well in my career or in love? I have dreams of enrolling in an English language course + a driving course so that I can try out as a medical representative (my diploma will be valid for this position), but I am a little scared - well, if I don't need the book or English? While working, I raised money for both endeavors, but I don't know if I should take a risk ...

Please give me advice. Thanks to everyone who took the time and patience to read my story. I can't feel the complete happiness and comfort at home. I'm shy and I find it really hard to trust people, but I don't think I'm a bad person. I am thankful to God that I am healthy! But why isn't it going well in my career or in love? I have dreams of enrolling in an English language course + a driving course so that I can try out as a medical representative (my diploma will be valid for this position), but I am a little scared - well, if I don't need the book or English? While working, I raised money for both endeavors, but I don't know if I should take a risk ... Please give me advice. Thanks to everyone who took the time and patience to read my story. I can't feel the complete happiness and comfort at home. I'm shy and I find it really hard to trust people, but I don't think I'm a bad person. I am thankful to God that I am healthy! But why isn't it going well in my career or in love? I have dreams of enrolling in an English language course + a driving course so that I can try out as a medical representative (my diploma will be valid for this position), but I am a little scared - well, if I don't need the book or English? While working, I raised money for both endeavors, but I don't know if I should take a risk ...

Please give me advice. Thanks to everyone who took the time and patience to read my story. nor in love? I have dreams of enrolling in an English language course + a driving course so that I can try myself as a medical representative (for this position my diploma will be valid), but I'm a little scared - well, if I don't need the book or English? While working, I raised money for both endeavors, but I don't know if I should take a risk ...

Please give me advice. Thanks to everyone who took the time and patience to read my story. nor in love? I have dreams of enrolling in an English language course + a driving course so that I can try myself as a medical representative (for this position my diploma will be valid), but I'm a little scared - well, if I don't need the book or English? While working, I raised money for both endeavors, but I don't know if I should take a risk ... Please give me advice. Thanks to everyone who took the time and patience to read my story.

Last Updated
August 17, 2020
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