Wounded And Betrayed

Hello, everyone! I have read so many personal stories, I have helped with a lot of advice, but at the moment I am in a very delicate situation and I will ask you for the best advice because I do not know how to deal with the situation. A few months ago I met virtually a 23-year-old girl studying in Varna, a great love flared up even from a distance, we saw each other 1-2 times a month and we just got so sick of things happening this way that we decided to let's live together. Ours were firm for her to come to my city (Sofia) and live here, where there are more prospects for everyone, but my friend came out with excuses that Sofia was not her city, that she would not feel good, that she was a winter girl. , and in Sofia it was cold that her people looked quite cold ... abe did not want to come to live in Sofia. During this time, surprisingly, she started working in 2 places, because she quarreled with her father that they were constantly given their money, and she spent a lot and did not know the measure. I was the one who made the sacrifice. I fucked up everything here - work, friends, family and went to live with her in Varna, because I was afraid that if we drove her like that we would break up and I could not bear to be with someone else. We were together for about 6 months before I left.

When I left for the first few days, everything was so wonderful that I thought this was my chosen companion in life. But suddenly something changed dramatically. We had a few days when she was resting and obviously then everything was fine, if she started working, she would come home in a bad mood, constantly grumbling, constantly nagging at me, causing me problems, accusing me of suffocating her, she didn't want to go out with me. We just sat at home and watched each other from a distance or everyone was lying on the bed and ticking their phone. It was as if this woman was slowly dying from within and exhausting her love ... I was in shock, literally everything was wonderful and suddenly it changed so abruptly. I can't figure out if it could be someone else she happened to meet and wanted to be with. When we lived together, she was really in bad shape. I even gave her my money to pay the first rent. She would return my money when she took the first salary from her work.

Her first job was in an insurance agency "Bulstrad", where she worked on insurance policies, things were not going well for her there. Her rich manager saw this, however, she had love problems and very often called mine to come to her to listen to her grief and was obviously looking for interest in it, because in this way the manager was helping her to make another deal on her behalf. Separately, this manager sleeps with rich men of different ages and now that the weather has warmed up she has started to take her to the beaches, back and forth, I wonder if it is possible that she introduced her to a rich man ??? And that's what I'm wondering ... Her second job was a 12-hour night shift at a hotel. She is also very likely to have met someone there, because the hotel is very popular and many people pass by every day. Even after we broke up, she fucked me, that she met someone from there, you don't even know if the fuck is true or not ... He just asked me a month and a half ago to pack my bags and get lost - she would have felt much better without me. I looked her in the eye and told her if you really wanted that - she told me to get out of here, I even saw you had a bus the next day.

The situation hurt me a lot, as if I went out after all this. I started constantly watching her when she came in line, because that's how she would suddenly dump you - I was constantly jealous if it wasn't for someone else. She is a very beautiful woman and can easily have a new partner. We also had divine sex separately, and all this, as I know it, cuts me from the inside so that now he will give these things to someone else. Very often it started to disappear from the line, especially during the day 5-6 hours, quite often it is not there. The evening is more active. I follow her, sometimes I guess she goes to bed after a night shift, but there are days when I just know it's a night shift, but disappears again during the day. When there is no night shift, he goes to bed at 12-1 in the evening, gets up at 8 o'clock, then goes in for 1 hour, goes out for 1 hour and this is repeated until 12-1 at noon; then abruptly disappears up to about 6-7 hours. I can't explain what he does during this time when he's not working. And this happens almost every day. 2 days ago he celebrated at night with his best friend, the next day during the day he was also at the pool with him, I can't figure out if he's with him all the time or just going out with his best friend and boyfriend, however to hide it from me and not tag it in photos. Separately, a rich man of 35 appeared, a very influential person, who I had the feeling was fucking with her, because she suddenly started uploading quite provocative photos - from modern restaurants, expensive cars, some rooms at night. Every picture of her hurt me so much, that I decided to study this man and he allegedly told me that you had a completely different girlfriend from her, that he lived elsewhere and had nothing to do with her. I know my behavior is so wrong after the separation, but I love this woman very much and I don't know how to stop following her.

I think about her all the time, I miss her terribly, as if she stole my happiness and gave it to someone else. I'm almost sure that there is someone else and so she hides her relationship just so as not to spoil it for her ... She wrote to me only once to tell me that even if I had written statuses about her, she didn't care and wouldn't is affected. We wrote 5 hours that day. She told me she was alone and drawing goals, but I don't believe she was alone. She even insulted me for being below her level. I spend most of my day watching when she's online and when she's not. I have shared with many friends, everyone says why you do it, what you earn, and I seem to find some relief when she's on the line and probably alone and they don't do it while I'm struggling ... I want to write to her so much, but she will probably reject me again. Especially if he's with someone else and I'm writing at the moment. Of course, she won't share the truth, but when I see her gone for hours, I start answering my questions. I feel a sense of possession that I can't bear to have someone else, and that it hurts me every day and I can't do anything. I want so much to kiss her, to love her, then to go out and be so happy again, and instead from the couch on the chair with the phone in hand and watching what she does and if there is a new photo. I can't stand being rejected, and until recently we talked about family and serious plans for a common business. Now it's all one powder and the reality is that maybe it's with another, she looks at herself and doesn't even think about what's wrong with me and how I can barely swallow the broken pieces ... I tried not to follow her and not to look at even one photo of her. I succeeded in only 4-5 days; then everything began to tremble in me and I realized that I would not be able to endure. She blocked my messenger chat, but not her entire profile, she can't stand seeing me when I'm online and that hasn't bothered her for more than a month, and I'm the one living with hope. Does it make sense to write to her? I want to pour out my whole soul ... she can't stand seeing me when I'm online, and that hasn't bothered her for more than a month, and I'm the one living with hope. Does it make sense to write to her? I want to pour out my whole soul ... she can't stand seeing me when I'm online, and that hasn't bothered her for more than a month, and I'm the one living with hope. Does it make sense to write to her? I want to pour out my whole soul ...