Woman Outside, Man Inside.

   I don't particularly believe in past lives, but some time ago I read about several such cases: https://reincarnationresearch.com/case-categories/?cat=gender-change-and-transsexualism You can realize what in you wants to be a man, even though you were born in a female body.

   You say you had boyfriends and they liked you a lot. Well, when you had sex with them, how did you feel, as a girl or as a boy?

   Another story that is proof that in Bulgaria people are extremely intolerant of the LGBTQ community, because if they were not, you would not feel uncomfortable with yourself and would proudly declare what you are. My advice to you is not to try to suppress yourself, to do what is done to you. Don't blame yourself for that, because it's not your fault. Do not torture yourself unnecessarily, because our homophobic society will not spare you anything. Also, if you are going to undergo hormone therapy to be absolutely sure that it is what you want, because there is no going back, and the chemicals and hormones that you will take are many and not very useful for the body, I guess. Also, before undergoing such therapy, I think it is good to consult a psychologist who has experience in working with LGBTQ people, to confirm your transsexuality, because it may be for a period of time or you may be gender fluid. Success!

   Wait now, you know that if you're a man you have to be attracted to women? But you say that boys attracted you, so what: You want to be a man, but a gay man? What's his logic here?

   From the author: Thank you very much for the comments! They definitely made me feel better. To number 1 - Honestly, I have not thought about the theory of past lives, but many times I wanted to be reborn as a man, which I do not think is a surprise given my situation. However, I don't think there's anything definite about me that binds me to the past or anything like that - I just want to change my gender. Number 2 - Well, I didn't think about it during the act because I didn't understand it, so it's hard for me to explain. I just always felt out of place and somehow I couldn't relax, to enjoy everything. I already realize that the blame is on me because I don't feel comfortable in my body, not because I'm worried about it, but because it's not the right thing for me. To number 4, I appreciate the support and advice, really. It motivates me. : D Unfortunately, part of the problem is that I do not find enough information about trans people in Bulgaria. I don't want to go to a psychologist to discourage me from making my choice. I really need to start actively looking for people who have worked with others like me. Ai number 5 ... The fact is that quite, not to say most trans men and women were lesbians and gays before they started living a new life, but in reality gender identity and sexual orientation are not related. You can feel like me and still be heterosexual (and therefore gay after you start identifying as the opposite sex) and vice versa, there are a hell of a lot of such cases, it's not uncommon. :) Well, if they were connected, then all gays and lesbians would be trance. In short, I want to be a man, but that doesn't change the fact that I like other men. part of the problem is that I do not find enough information about trans people in Bulgaria. I don't want to go to a psychologist to discourage me from making my choice. I really need to start actively looking for people who have worked with others like me. Ai number 5 ... The fact is that quite, not to say most trans men and women were lesbians and gays before they started living a new life, but in reality gender identity and sexual orientation are not related. You can feel like me and still be heterosexual (and therefore gay after you start identifying as the opposite sex) and vice versa, there are a hell of a lot of such cases, it's not uncommon. :) Well, if they were connected, then all gays and lesbians would be trance. In short, I want to be a man, but that doesn't change the fact that I like other men. part of the problem is that I do not find enough information about trans people in Bulgaria. I don't want to go to a psychologist to discourage me from making my choice. I really need to start actively looking for people who have worked with others like me. Ai number 5 ... The fact is that quite, not to say most trans men and women were lesbians and gays before they started living a new life, but in reality gender identity and sexual orientation are not related. You can feel like me and still be heterosexual (and therefore gay after you start defining yourself as the opposite sex) and vice versa, there are a hell of a lot of such cases, it's not uncommon. :) Well, if they were connected, then all gays and lesbians would be trance. In short, I want to be a man, but that doesn't change the fact that I like other men. that I do not find enough information about trans people in Bulgaria. I don't want to go to a psychologist to discourage me from making my choice. I really need to start actively looking for people who have worked with others like me. Ai number 5 ... The fact is that quite, not to say most trans men and women were lesbians and gays before they started living a new life, but in reality gender identity and sexual orientation are not related. You can feel like me and still be heterosexual (and therefore gay after you start identifying as the opposite sex) and vice versa, there are a hell of a lot of such cases, it's not uncommon. :) Well, if they were connected, then all gays and lesbians would be trance. In short, I want to be a man, but that doesn't change the fact that I like other men. that I do not find enough information about trans people in Bulgaria. I don't want to go to a psychologist to discourage me from making my choice. I really need to start actively looking for people who have worked with others like me. Ai number 5 ... The fact is that quite, not to say most trans men and women were lesbians and gays before they started living a new life, but in reality gender identity and sexual orientation are not related. You can feel like me and still be heterosexual (and therefore gay after you start identifying as the opposite sex) and vice versa, there are a hell of a lot of such cases, it's not uncommon. :) Well, if they were connected, then all gays and lesbians would be trance. In short, I want to be a man, but that doesn't change the fact that I like other men. I don't want to go to a psychologist to discourage me from making my choice. I really need to start actively looking for people who have worked with others like me. Ai number 5 ... The fact is that quite, not to say most trans men and women were lesbians and gays before they started living a new life, but in reality gender identity and sexual orientation are not related. You can feel like me and still be heterosexual (and therefore gay after you start identifying as the opposite sex) and vice versa, there are a hell of a lot of such cases, it's not uncommon. :) Well, if they were connected, then all gays and lesbians would be trance. In short, I want to be a man, but that doesn't change the fact that I like other men. I don't want to go to a psychologist to discourage me from making my choice. I really need to start actively looking for people who have worked with others like me. Ai number 5 ... The fact is that quite, not to say most trans men and women were lesbians and gays before they started living a new life, but in reality gender identity and sexual orientation are not related. You can feel like me and still be heterosexual (and therefore gay after you start identifying as the opposite sex) and vice versa, there are a hell of a lot of such cases, it's not uncommon. :) Well, if they were connected, then all gays and lesbians would be trance. In short, I want to be a man, but that doesn't change the fact that I like other men. who have worked with others like me. Ai number 5 ... The fact is that quite, not to say most trans men and women were lesbians and gays before they started living a new life, but in reality gender identity and sexual orientation are not related. You can feel like me and still be heterosexual (and therefore gay after you start identifying as the opposite sex) and vice versa, there are a hell of a lot of such cases, it's not uncommon. :) Well, if they were connected, then all gays and lesbians would be trance. In short, I want to be a man, but that doesn't change the fact that I like other men. who have worked with others like me. Ai number 5 ... The fact is that quite, not to say most trans men and women were lesbians and gays before they started living a new life, but in reality gender identity and sexual orientation are not related. You can feel like me and still be heterosexual (and therefore gay after you start identifying as the opposite sex) and vice versa, there are a hell of a lot of such cases, it's not uncommon. :) Well, if they were connected, then all gays and lesbians would be trance. In short, I want to be a man, but that doesn't change the fact that I like other men. You can feel like me and still be heterosexual (and therefore gay after you start identifying as the opposite sex) and vice versa, there are a hell of a lot of such cases, it's not uncommon. :) Well, if they were connected, then all gays and lesbians would be trance. In short, I want to be a man, but that doesn't change the fact that I like other men. You can feel like me and still be heterosexual (and therefore gay after you start identifying as the opposite sex) and vice versa, there are a hell of a lot of such cases, it's not uncommon. :) Well, if they were connected, then all gays and lesbians would be trance. In short, I want to be a man, but that doesn't change the fact that I like other men.

   Do not rush to self-determine, let alone take hormones. Seriously. Make a search on the subject, read about it. Being transgender doesn't mean you prefer toys for boys as a child or you prefer pants. Keep in mind that the human body and brain develop up to 25 years. That is, you are still growing. And your psyche is still developing. Between the ages of 18 and 25, I've undergone such a change that it's like looking at different people who have nothing to do with each other. Give yourself time. And don't rush with labels and definitions. At least not in the coming years;) You will find yourself one day. Even if he is a man himself :)

   Amy has no drama. You sleep like a gay man with a man, and he de facto sleeps with a woman. Choose a more feminine and passive man. So both will be ok.

   Go to a psychologist. It will help you!

   It's like I wrote it, hey ...