Wishing A Friend

Hello! I have the following problem: I have a serious relationship for almost 2 years, I love my boyfriend, I like to be with him. I have the feeling that he is my support and if we separate I will not be able to fight alone. I'm afraid to be alone! But whether it's because I'm too affectionate, as he says, or I just lack tenderness lately, I've been thinking about someone else. There is no specific man, but I have suitors. The point is that I am not a person who accepts infidelity, and at the same time so many things come to my mind that I can do with some of my suitors that I am ashamed. I talked to my friend (more than once) about the fact that I lack tenderness, that I want him to caress me from time to time, to play with my hair, to tell me that I am beautiful, that he loves me - to give me a little self-confidence , after all, what else do I stand for hours in front of the mirror. And so, over time, I began to fantasize about other men. I still don't have the courage to cheat, but if I do, I won't be the same. I don't know how to fight these fantasies of mine, I really care about our relationship, but I'm no longer sure if he cares so much about her, because when you love someone you do your best to make him happy, and he determines tenderness as "slimy" and accordingly does not want to look "stupid". Please advise me what to do. Should I talk to him again (what can I tell him) or are we just not for each other and should I accept the "bitter jealousy" Thanks in advance! but I'm not sure if he cares so much about her anymore, because when you love someone you give your best to make him happy, and he defines tenderness as "slimy" and accordingly doesn't want to look "stupid". Please advise me what to do. Should I talk to him again (what can I tell him) or are we just not for each other and should I accept the "bitter jealousy"? Thanks in advance! but I'm not sure if he cares so much about her anymore, because when you love someone you give your best to make him happy, and he defines tenderness as "slimy" and accordingly doesn't want to look "stupid". Please advise me what to do. Should I talk to him again (what can I tell him) or are we just not for each other and should I accept the "bitter jealousy"? Thanks in advance!