Will This Turn Into Anorexia?

For several weeks I looked in the mirror and saw a very thick legs, belly. I stopped having lunch. My most normal diet is morning muesli with yogurt and a teaspoon of honey. I haven't eaten chocolate since April, I don't eat other sweet things either. Even just yogurt satisfies me. Otherwise I eat meat and fish, but rarely. My mother forced me to eat, she said I would become ugly thin ... But now look ... Why my girlfriend (Let's call her M) can be 163 tall and 47 kg - the difference between her height and kg is 116 ( let me add that she will gain 45 kg !!) ... And I, who am 150 tall, can't be 34 kg No, I didn't mean to get up that much, but I just wonder. My mother told me that I would look awful if I gained 34 kg. But why? Won't I look as thin as M? What is the problem? I want to be thin :( My waist used to be 68, now it is 62 cm, I want it to be 60 cm; d My hips were 93, now it is 83 cm, and my breasts have shrunk, not that I care how big they are ... Am I crazy? You will probably think of me as such ... For my first sentence - it is not so, there are moments when I see myself weak, but not always. Tell me if I continue to lose weight (something that happens at the rate of a snail - 1 kg per month ...) Should I get up, well, not 34 kg, but 37 or 38 kg. If I become so, will I be as weak as M? Or will I look worse than her? I am now 42; 42.5 when I ate. I don't want to be anorexic. I do not like them! I want to be healthy! Tell me what to do :) Give me some advice and if possible do not attack and insult me ​​:) For my first sentence - it's not true, there are times when I see myself weak, but not always. Tell me if I continue to lose weight (something that happens at the rate of a snail - 1 kg per month ...) Should I get up, well, not 34 kg, but 37 or 38 kg. If that happened, would I be as weak as M? Or will I look worse than her? I am now 42; 42.5 when I ate. I don't want to be anorexic. I do not like them! I want to be healthy! Tell me what to do :) Give me some advice and if possible do not attack and insult me ​​:) For my first sentence - it's not true, there are times when I see myself weak, but not always. Tell me if I continue to lose weight (something that happens at the rate of a snail - 1 kg per month ...) Should I get up, well, not 34 kg, but 37 or 38 kg. If I become so, will I be as weak as M? Or will I look worse than her? I am now 42; 42.5 when I ate. I don't want to be anorexic. I do not like them! I want to be healthy! Tell me what to do :) Give me some advice and if possible do not attack and insult me ​​:) I do not like them! I want to be healthy! Tell me what to do :) Give me some advice and if possible do not attack and insult me ​​:) I do not like them! I want to be healthy! Tell me what to do :) Give me some advice and if possible do not attack and insult me ​​:)