Will I Be Alone

I am a woman of 22 and a little over a year ago I found a boyfriend and only then did I have sex for the first time. We didn't fight at all, but after a year we got bored and didn't love each other like before and we broke up. I'm shy and then I was surprised to find a boyfriend. Then I was afraid that I would die a virgin, and now I am afraid that I will die without my family. We had met at our university. It hadn't bothered him that I was a virgin in my sophomore year. Otherwise, by chance, will I ever be able to find a boyfriend. Whether at work or while going to the store or on a bus or whatever. I went out with my friends in the city, but I rarely went to discos. And now in the city with the university I drink coffee with my colleagues and also very rarely and after lectures we go out and I went out with my ex. The other time I stay in the dormitory. That's why I wonder if I won't be able to find a boyfriend someday if I'm not very sociable and don't go out much. At least I already have some confidence. I'm thinking in a few years if I don't have to register on a dating site. But I've read about them that a lot of old men post fake young photos or that someone just wants sex or to cheat on their boyfriend. And the former first started talking to me and I answered. Would it be good to wait for a man to start again, because I will be very ashamed to start with someone. Ever since I've been with him, I've started to dress better and put on make-up sometimes. Before that I even thought that I would never want children, that it was diapers, roaring, money, but after I was with him I realized that if I ever really love someone I would want to grow old with him and have a child. When I turned 80, I shouldn't wonder why I lived at all and that I missed the best in life. And I don't care how much the man's money will be. I will work too. And lastly, I like decent men, I won't let anyone beat me or come home drunk every day. There are decent believe. The former drank only on friends' birthdays when he walked and still did not get drunk.