Will I Always Be Alone?

   Become gamen and you will not have problems with women.

   I'm one-on-one with you, only I'm a girl. I know my reason and it is that I am not beautiful and I do not attract people visually. I don't know if that's the case for you, but you may not appeal to them either. Another problem is my difficult acquaintance and communication, but this is due to my low self-esteem and the suggestion that everyone considers me ugly and does not want to contact me. And I'm starting to despair and feel worse and worse.

   Number one is very right with this sentence. Another issue is that not everyone is capable of such behavior. I understand you very well and I didn't mean to write to you. But briefly I will try to explain to you what you are getting into. I am a man of 40 years. I live in a large hereditary apartment in the center of a big city. Coincidentally, my mother uses a third of the apartment and doesn't bother me with anything. It's as if she's gone. They divorced my father when I was 15 and life took me from a young age. I saw my friends having fun and going out to the bars, and I couldn't sit with them. I am also quiet, modest and very patient. I was forced to meet a girl at the age of 18 and I went crazy over her. I gave my all and she tried to get rid of me. I started working at 16. Money was no longer a problem. But I worked late and missed the company. I quit the barracks after 19. I found another company from a FRIEND in the barracks. Alongside them, many girls began to throw themselves at my neck. And I thought I had to be good and faithful! They turned me like a rag. One, the other, the fifth. They were all classmates from the same school. I found out later that the first one bragged in public about my size, and for a long time I wondered how 10-12 girls competed to throw themselves at my neck. Until one of them dropped out and told me that many of them wanted to sleep with me because of the size. And I most naively thought that each of them is serious and a good relationship will come out. I am still the same soft soul. But 2 years ago I got tired! I'm tired and right. My many wooden ties turned out to be a failure to a greater failure. At 33, I dreamed like you of a family and a child. I saw nothing in front of me except the children on the street. That's why I gritted my teeth and eyes and caught the first one that paid attention to me. I told myself that this was the end of my wanderings and I would do my best to create this dream child and family. This person agreed with me and we lived together in the big apartment. At six months, my mother became redundant. Everyday scandals! Words that tore my soul and heart! I knew I had to keep quiet. A wonderful boy was born to me. I turned my whole soul and existence only for him. Because of the sick brain of his mother, who changed radically differently the moment she found out she was pregnant, now my child has psychosis from the scandals! I do not believe in the fictional world of gods and demons, but every day I ask them to take my soul as a price to fix the child. In 2002 I started working for a family. Husband and wife. A year later, an "angel" appears at my workplace! Their daughter dressed in white and I totally blocked! I lost my mind and my word when I saw her. We gradually became closer over the years and I became her best friend! I know an awful lot of things in life that she shared with me. It got to the point that it made me look at my breasts for lumps !!! He had me for a girl! And I, the fool, fluttered after her for 14 years! I was always by her side. he frequented his parents' visits and stood around me all the time. I watched her connections. I supported her when she collapsed. Finally he got caught up with an unassuming computer uncle 10 years older than us! At the age of 4, they became pregnant by him, and instead of rejoicing, I sank like a wrecked ship. I endured the "girlfriend" for years. I finally realized what I had done to myself with that sigh at her. I wasted my life! I am 40 years old and I am a rag! I'm not happy about anything! 2 years ago I decided to end with the "kind and considerate" person I am. I hated my bosses' daughter. I started behaving disgustingly with her. I insulted her! I was bothering her. I even stopped talking to her. After 40 missed calls, he sent me a message that he was not feeling well. I ran to them. Her dirty lie was to make me worry about her and talk. She was sitting at the table in them alone. He forced me to pour out my soul. He roared and threw himself on my neck. It turned out that for years she had the same feelings for me, and she deliberately went with her uncle to provoke me and shout. After I didn't do it, she refused to pursue me. We were lovers for about a year and a half. Because I am a soft soul, my conscience gnawed at me. I love her, but I don't want to see her! I am writing about this even now on this site, because I do not want to be upset anymore. I don't want to be anyone's background! I missed a lot of chances and good opportunities to organize my life. I find the greatest guilt in the attitude and humanity that I have by birth. I wasted my life, but you're still 20 years old. Now is the time to fly out of the nest! As impossible as it may seem to you, get away from your parents! Enroll in any higher education! If you want a hygienist! You will find yourself in another society. 60 percent of female students are smart and modest. There is the best option to look for a good girl. If you don't help yourself, it won't fall on top of you! That's why I wrote you my damn life so you wouldn't get there. If I can't be happy, I will try to make other people like that. Act, my friend, and know that life and especially people are evil! That crazy one because I don't want to be upset anymore. I don't want to be anyone's background! I missed a lot of chances and good opportunities to organize my life. I find the greatest guilt in the attitude and humanity that I have by birth. I wasted my life, but you're still 20 years old. Now is the time to fly out of the nest! As impossible as it may seem to you, get away from your parents! Enroll in any higher education! If you want a hygienist! You will find yourself in another society. 60 percent of female students are smart and modest. There is the best option to look for a good girl. If you don't help yourself, it won't fall on top of you! That's why I wrote you my damn life so you wouldn't get there. If I can't be happy, I will try to make other people like that. Act, my friend, and know that life and especially people are evil! That crazy one because I don't want to be upset anymore. I don't want to be anyone's background! I missed a lot of chances and good opportunities to organize my life. I find the greatest guilt in the attitude and humanity that I have by birth. I wasted my life, but you're still 20 years old. Now is the time to fly out of the nest! As impossible as it may seem to you, get away from your parents! Enroll in any higher education! If you want a hygienist! You will find yourself in another society. 60 percent of female students are smart and modest. There is the best option to look for a good girl. If you don't help yourself, it won't fall on top of you! That's why I wrote you my damn life so you wouldn't get there. If I can't be happy, I will try to make other people like that. Act, my friend, and know that life and especially people are evil! That crazy one I don't want to be anyone's background! I missed a lot of chances and good opportunities to organize my life. I find the greatest guilt in the attitude and humanity that I have by birth. I wasted my life, but you're still 20 years old. Now is the time to fly out of the nest! As impossible as it may seem to you, get away from your parents! Enroll in any higher education! If you want a hygienist! You will find yourself in another society. 60 percent of female students are smart and modest. There is the best option to look for a good girl. If you don't help yourself, it won't fall on top of you! That's why I wrote you my damn life so you wouldn't get there. If I can't be happy, I will try to make other people like that. Act, my friend, and know that life and especially people are evil! That crazy one I don't want to be anyone's background! I missed a lot of chances and good opportunities to organize my life. I find the greatest guilt in the attitude and humanity that I have by birth. I wasted my life, but you're still 20 years old. Now is the time to fly out of the nest! As impossible as it may seem to you, get away from your parents! Enroll in any higher education! If you want a hygienist! You will find yourself in another society. 60 percent of female students are smart and modest. There is the best option to look for a good girl. If you don't help yourself, it won't fall on top of you! That's why I wrote you my damn life so you wouldn't get there. If I can't be happy, I will try to make other people like that. Act, my friend, and know that life and especially people are evil! That crazy one I missed a lot of chances and good opportunities to organize my life. I find the greatest guilt in the attitude and humanity that I have by birth. I wasted my life, but you're still 20 years old. Now is the time to fly out of the nest! As impossible as it may seem to you, get away from your parents! Enroll in any higher education! If you want a hygienist! You will find yourself in another society. 60 percent of female students are smart and modest. There is the best option to look for a good girl. If you don't help yourself, it won't fall on top of you! That's why I wrote you my damn life so you wouldn't get there. If I can't be happy, I will try to make other people like that. Act, my friend, and know that life and especially people are evil! That crazy one I missed a lot of chances and good opportunities to organize my life. I find the greatest guilt in the attitude and humanity that I have by birth. I wasted my life, but you're still 20 years old. Now is the time to fly out of the nest! As impossible as it may seem to you, get away from your parents! Enroll in any higher education! If you want a hygienist! You will find yourself in another society. 60 percent of female students are smart and modest. There is the best option to look for a good girl. If you don't help yourself, it won't fall on top of you! That's why I wrote you my damn life so you wouldn't get there. If I can't be happy, I will try to make other people like that. Act, my friend, and know that life and especially people are evil! That crazy one but you are still 20 years old. Now is the time to fly out of the nest! As impossible as it may seem to you, get away from your parents! Enroll in any higher education! If you want a hygienist! You will find yourself in another society. 60 percent of female students are smart and modest. There is the best option to look for a good girl. If you don't help yourself, it won't fall on top of you! That's why I wrote you my damn life so you wouldn't get there. If I can't be happy, I will try to make other people like that. Act, my friend, and know that life and especially people are evil! That crazy one but you are still 20 years old. Now is the time to fly out of the nest! As impossible as it may seem to you, get away from your parents! Enroll in any higher education! If you want a hygienist! You will find yourself in another society. 60 percent of female students are smart and modest. There is the best option to look for a good girl. If you don't help yourself, it won't fall on top of you! That's why I wrote you my damn life so you wouldn't get there. If I can't be happy, I will try to make other people like that. Act, my friend, and know that life and especially people are evil! That crazy one There is the best option to look for a good girl. If you don't help yourself, it won't fall on top of you! That's why I wrote you my damn life so you wouldn't get there. If I can't be happy, I will try to make other people like that. Act, my friend, and know that life and especially people are evil! That crazy one There is the best option to look for a good girl. If you don't help yourself, it won't fall on top of you! That's why I wrote you my damn life so you wouldn't get there. If I can't be happy, I will try to make other people like that. Act, my friend, and know that life and especially people are evil! That crazy one

   It was funny to me when I read that you are 20 years old. In those years you need to be full of enthusiasm, energy, desire to live (even if you are an introvert), and not to complain like someone who has halved his life into nonsense. Relax, you don't have to be a party animal to have friends or a boyfriend. I know ... at that age, everyone behaves like animals, but I'm sure there are quiet people like you, you know ... they don't communicate much, but there's a reason for that, and it's called - something like self-sufficiency. .., you see what people are like and you know that without them you will be better, but sometimes you are required to say two words to someone different from yourself (eternal monologues), does it sound familiar to you? If not, then you are not a quiet man, but depressed. Do you miss people? Get out and come to Sofia. If you're a quiet man, you're going to explode, if you're depressed, you will have a lot of room for expression of .... your behavior. And, life doesn't change by itself, so even if you wait ... you'll spend your life waiting. Action is needed.

   Read about indigo personalities like you and me who don't fit into today's confused society. Girls / Women are looking for the primary and the animal in the man at the moment because only this guarantees their generation. You become "strong" physically / financially or you observe people from the side and analyze them and learn, if you are embedded in the earthly lessons that you have to learn and you are lucky you can meet a girl with behavior and understandings like yours.

   1 gave you the right advice. And there are reasons for that, of course. It's called natural selection. Women are used to expecting an aggressive, selfish, even narcissistic man. A man who can take what he wants from life, alone, without any scruples. Women can't live with such men, but they want to "fix" them ... To other men, there is no "chemistry", and there is no respect, so they can't live with them either. Conclusion - a woman can not live with any man. And no, that's not a euphemism for something else. THIS IS HOW IT IS IN NATURE. Male and female meet at certain times of the year, indulge in hormones, make the next generation and who from where ... If you have to choose which man to be - better to be an unscrupulous fucker ... Unfortunately, one can not to choose his character, and even more - EVERYONE LIES about what they value and expect. No one will tell you what the truth really is except: 1) the biology textbook. Read dear! 2) your own eyes. One is deceived, first of all when one wants to be deceived. And someone will ask how we have developed as a civilization for so many years ... Well, that's what our parents did, and the stigma they had about marriage and family. Throughout our familiar history, starting a family has been a tradition, and there has been a female role, there has been a male role. To a large extent, the choice of a partner has revolved around people fulfilling their roles and being compatible, and if they are not, being patient. People under 40 are the first to indulge in total freedom, hedonism, and the idea that the family can be based on fun, sex, animal instinct. That's the key, because it's so hard, especially for today's men to find a wife. In the animal kingdom, very few males leave a genetic legacy. When you bring a person down to an animal, the effect is the same. 80% of females are looking for 20% of males. So don't believe stupid words like 2. Unless she's over 100 pounds, and over 35, every woman has at least some choice of men. But if she's not pretty enough, yes, she won't be among those top 20%, but between the bottom 80%. When a woman tells you she has no men, she means just that. Nature has endowed women with the ability to enchant most men, this is again BILOGIA people. But you have to maintain yourself a bit, and use your active years between 20 and 30 to catch someone. What women are being taught now, however, is to indulge in prostitution and the pursuit of "cool guys" over the years. And after 35, then to think about family. Otherwise, to the author, if you are looking for a solution - no. This is all conducted from above. Just as traditions used to be conducted from above, now it is conducted again. And the reason is simple - humanity has increased a lot, and the policies that are evolving are just population control. If you think about this question, you will explain a lot of life today. China, if you know, had a policy - one child per family. It had serious problems, but what created the West was even worse. Their idea is to break up the family and reduce the population through the methods of liberalism. and the policies that are being developed are simply population control. If you think about this question, you will explain a lot of life today. China, if you know, had a policy - one child per family. It had serious problems, but what created the West was even worse. Their idea is to break up the family and reduce the population through the methods of liberalism. and the policies that are being developed are simply population control. If you think about this question, you will explain a lot of life today. China, if you know, had a policy - one child per family. It had serious problems, but what created the West was even worse. Their idea is to break up the family and reduce the population through the methods of liberalism.

   "I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm living in isolation from society and I feel worse every day." In these years you should strive to get to know the world - to conquer peaks, to learn languages. Enroll in a mountain club or dance group. Life there is much more intense and higher values ​​are shared.

   There are about 5 Indigo children on Earth a long time ago. They are here to destroy bad and dysfunctional systems, but in a bad aspect, they can show unnecessary aggression, sow depravity, low values, become alcoholics, drug addicts, murderers. Does it sound familiar to you? There are many indigo children on this planet. Read about crystal children or rainbow children. They are very gentle, considerate, emotionally mature, not just emotional. They will lay the new foundations.

   I was like you, but everything changed when I started studying in another city / not in Sofia /. When I moved to a dormitory, I wanted to - I didn't want to, sharing a room with 5 other people, I socialized. Adding that I got rid of my toxic parents and old "friends", things worked out. Do you have any ambitions for development - to study and / or work in another city. I studied and worked at the same time. I was constantly among people and socialized. That was the solution for me. The truth is, if you don't make a sharp turn, nothing will change and time flies. Try to get out of your comfort zone. I wish you luck.

   Up to 5 Are you sure that these Indigo children do not have a mild autistic disorder for example. Up to 6 Honey dripped on my heart as I read your comment. Naturally, I voted with 5 stars. Very well said. The female wants the male to push her slightly. In nature, among animals it seems to be forced among many, many species, I'm not so special as to say all. Among people, such behavior is dangerous, you have to be on the edge or very slightly around it. Not everyone is capable of such a golden environment. You need a certain self-confidence and not only, to be padded. I would responsibly say that about 80% of men fight for 20-30% of women. Of course, not everyone can, there are many factors in humans. In the past, people were rarely in love, it was desirable, dreamy. Written in books, fifth in songs. There have been a hell of a lot of arranged marriages. In many settlements there was not a large choice of partners. In the villages in Bulgaria after World War II, a girl after 20 unmarried was considered an old maid - it was considered shameful and bad. Now they almost make us think of ourselves as eternal. At 30-35 to find a partner, to have children - you literally catch the last fast train, but the last one. I watched an interview with a psychologist / sexologist on BNT, where the woman said that the presence of social networks, I would add going to school, university and discos, makes people seriously mistaken for the real number of real potential partners. Here we must take into account the fact that in Bulgaria the class division in society is a completely new process, and emigration has no strong counterpoint. a girl after 20 unmarried was considered an old maid - it was considered shameful and bad. Now they almost make us think of ourselves as eternal. At 30-35 to find a partner, to have children - you literally catch the last fast train, but the last one. I watched an interview with a psychologist / sexologist on BNT, where the woman said that the presence of social networks, I would add going to school, university and discos, makes people seriously mistaken for the real number of real potential partners. Here we must take into account the fact that in Bulgaria the class division in society is a completely new process, and emigration has no strong counterpoint. a girl after 20 unmarried was considered an old maid - it was considered shameful and bad. Now they almost make us think of ourselves as eternal. At 30-35 to find a partner, to have children - you literally catch the last fast train, but the last one. I watched an interview with a psychologist / sexologist on BNT, where the woman said that the presence of social networks, I would add going to school, university and discos, makes people seriously mistaken for the real number of real potential partners. Here we must take into account the fact that in Bulgaria the class division in society is a completely new process, and emigration has no strong counterpoint. there the woman said that the presence of social networks, I would add and going to school, university and discos, makes people seriously mistaken for the real number of real potential partners. Here we must take into account the fact that in Bulgaria the class division in society is a completely new process, and emigration has no strong counterpoint. there the woman said that the presence of social networks, I would add and going to school, university and discos, makes people seriously mistaken for the real number of real potential partners. Here we must take into account the fact that in Bulgaria the class division in society is a completely new process, and emigration has no strong counterpoint.

   Hello, author! I'm like you too! But I'm already 36! Today was the culmination of the celebrations on the occasion of 140 years of the Navy! Today, for the first time, I had the chance to watch the training parade at sea, as well as to board a warship! And in a few days is the Feast of Varna! There is something to see in our city! What about being alone? And hardly if I had a company, it would share my interests! My answer is clear - NO! Then why are there any people out there who don't care about folklore, exhibitions, a brass band or visiting and getting to know a warship up close! How about "stuffing"? "Filling" of what-on drunken orgies and empty talk? I don't like that! I do not separate from society, but I try to merge with it! And I succeed! People respect me! I've already started saying, "I'm not like the others" - I don't go there, where the degraded society goes - pubs, clubs, etc. under. Yes, your city is small, you don't mention where you are from! You must have a community center! It must be interesting to watch your older fellow citizens sing and play there! There is a place to kill boredom!

   That crazy one, you're already my favorite Pokemon here. : D Brother.

   To number two ... he described me in two sentences! :)