Why Is This Filth Appealing To Me?

The Story

Hello, I will share with you something that until recently I did not even dare to admit to myself. In sex, I am attracted to the brutal domination of women, humiliation, ridicule, dirty. Sometimes, when I'm alone, I play porn and somehow inadvertently look for the hardest scenes, where the woman is treated like garbage, like an animal. I feel how this excites me and at the same time I loathe myself, this interest and those who cause it to the fairer sex. I have contempt for these men, all the porn is nasty and humiliating to the woman, but at the same time I feel how my body reacts with excitement. Why? I can't find the answer in myself, why is that appealing to me? Why can't I have a normal harmonious relationship with tenderness, love and reciprocity, and I watch this crap. I'm looking for an answer in my childhood, maybe because I had a stern father? Yes, he was, but not as extremely brutal as to pervert sexually, so to speak. I'm interested in the psychological explanation, I'm sure I'm not the only one, but I want to know the reason that could have caused this in me, because I don't feel OK. I want to clarify that I have no fantasies related to someone humiliating and harassing me in the way I watched videos. The excitement comes from watching women being abused. I am terrible. :( The excitement comes from watching women being abused. I am terrible. :( The excitement comes from watching women being abused. I am terrible. :(

Last Updated
August 08, 2020
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