Why Don't I Have Friends?

The Story

I am a girl and I am 14 years old. My life is fucking ugly!

 

Nobody has ever understood me, people around me have always used me, now you will say "children's stories", it is possible to be a child, but for my age, I have grown a lot ..... or so I think.

 

I do not have friends. Everyone has always avoided and hated me. I don't pretend to be optimistic, but I'm not from the inside, I'm from bad to worse. I have a brother who is 7 years older, he has so many friends ....... he is constantly outside, I envy him when I go out in the city, I see everyone has gone out with friends, and I am with my mother because there are no others. Not that I have anything against her, on the contrary, I'm glad I have a family because I might not have that either, but it's different to go out with a friend to talk about everything ... it's just different.

 

I can only imagine how banal everything sounds to you, but there was simply no one to tell what I think, feel ... and yet you apologize for bothering me with my nonsense. I'm so used to avoiding and hating myself that someone calls me on the phone and I cry, and just because someone thought of me ... and that means an awful lot to me.

 

This was just one problem for me, there are many more, but I won't list them all ... just a little more;]

 

The other problem is that there is something in my psyche. I fall a little sad, I dream things that come true, and I hand people over without wanting to :( There is no worse person than me and there never will be !!! Sometimes I wonder what I was born for and why I don't throw myself away. somewhere to end ... but I don't want to because of ours ... they will die of grief ...

 

How I want only everyone who will read this to be my friends ..... otherwise it would be great to make this site in 2 halves - for dating (for people like me) and anonymous but ..... hardly. .... because of some idiot like me ... (sorry I'm a little complex .. not even slightly) Emmy that was ... and again sorry that I'm bothering you with my stupidity.

Last Updated
July 18, 2020
Author:
paulinaa_1

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