Why Does It Hurt So Much?

The Story

Surely what I will share here is a banal story and it will not be of much interest, but I still need to share my pain ... I am almost 21 years old, not so old, but injured enough to I stopped believing in love ... Before I had dreams and hopes, I believed in pure and sublime feelings, I believed that there is love, that I will be very happy one day ... Dreams - they are free! I went through 3 (and only relationships), things still didn't work out, I don't know if I was guilty, but I must have been to blame, because I was always abandoned for one reason or another ... Maybe I went through everything, infidelities and quarrels, divisions, betrayal, disappointment ... everything. After my last relationship - the sum of all possible negativisms of "love", I renounced that sublime love in which I believed as a child, I promised myself I wouldn't hurt myself like that again ... and I was fine with that decision. But things don't usually happen the way we want them to and fate had to bring me together with him ... I won't be distracted by how we met, etc. there is simply no point in unnecessary explanations, except for the explanation that there are tears in my eyes again - once again ... And so briefly, when we met he had a girlfriend of about 6 months, but they had problems and he left her and started a relationship with me, and so for about a month - everything was fine, I believed him, although I had vowed not to let him anymore, yet he was the only one for so long whom I decided to give a chance - I just fell in love. Then he told me things wouldn't work out and the usual excuses when you dump someone left me no choice, I didn't say anything, he had already made the decision for both of us. Today I found out that he had returned to Her (his former girlfriend), and again it turned out that I was the toy for a few days, and she was the doll, I was the whore for sex, and she was the princess for all nights ... And again the old tape, they made fun of me again ... I didn't do any harm to anyone, I did my best for my relationships, and no one could at least treat me with dignity and tell the truth, even if it was painful ...

Last Updated
October 03, 2020
Author:
mcgw1

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