Hello! I'm very confused and I really need advice. I had a 3-year relationship with a man. I loved him very much, but we didn't understand each other at all. He was constantly angry about something, jealous of me for no reason, listening to everyone but me. We broke up and after a while, my current friend appeared, we have been with him for 5 months now. He is wonderful, he respects me, he appreciates me. He is the complete opposite of the previous one, his character is almost wonderful! But there's the problem that I don't love him, and he already wants us to get married. I would marry a man like him, but he doesn't appeal to me.
I think I'm in love with a boy who's not from my city. I hadn't seen him in years, and when I met him, I barely recognized him. But he didn't. We said goodbye and that was it, but from that moment on it didn't go out of my mind. I decided I needed to find him. And after a year and two months of searching, I found his number. I called him and offered to see him, stop by sometime and have coffee. He said he would stop by and look forward to seeing you. But he has been silent for a week. He didn't call me, he didn't even click once. I'm worried if he likes me, and the worst part is that I don't have much time.
I've been looking for love until now, for so long, and now I think he's everything I've been looking for. But if he doesn't love me, if nothing happens? That's why I'm confused. I don't know what to choose - the unknown? Where I can stay alone. Or surely with a person who respects me, but I will not be really happy with him, but at least I will be calm. I don't know if I press the other person to admit to me how he feels about me and does he think that something will happen between us, won't he get scared and really lose him, I don't even know if I call him again? I don't want to be intrusive, but I don't have time to wait. Everything is probably offered to me by the person I don't want, and the unknown by the person I want.
I know this is the most important step in my life and I am afraid of making a mistake and then regretting it for the rest of my life. I'm afraid of being left alone, but even without love, I would be unhappy!
Thank you for reading my long story and I ask you, heartily, for advice !!!