Slightly drunk, I start writing this story ... I needed a little more courage to make my debut among the authors of the stories here. And a debut is taking shape ... I am a girl, 21. I have had a serious relationship for a year now. My boyfriend and I have a great relationship and I think we get along great. I to him and he to me is the first partner with whom I have formed a serious relationship. And I would say that I love him ... I like to talk, I like to spend time with him, to sleep together. I understand him, just as he understands me. I would say that we have a deep emotional connection because we have revealed ourselves almost completely to each other. But something seems to be wrong ... I recently had a dream that I was cheating on him with one of his good friends. Don't think that I was secretly physically attracted to him - no, I'm not. Moreover, the friend in question is also engaged. The more serious reason that makes me think something is wrong is that I feel seduced by another of his friends. We have a lot of common interests with him - starting from education, through the way we dress, hobbies, music we listen to, talents ... Physically, this boy is inferior to my friend at times, but I can't explain why I wanted him. . I value this primary desire as a huge mistake of mine and I try to block it the moment it appears. My friend in question at a party wanted to kiss me, even though he knew I was the boyfriend of one of his closest friends ... Hasn't this desire of his still clung to my mind, making me feel wanted? ? What prevents me from stopping the vicious thoughts of infidelity and betrayal of the man closest to me? I realize how awful what I think is ... I would ask you to leave your comments. Be honest and direct. If the fault is only in me .. How can I fix it? I don't want to hurt anyone ...
1 owenp1998 answered
Familiar. Your relationship has ended. It's only a matter of time before you break up.