Where Should I Go?

The Story

I'm so confused that I don't know where to start - from the beginning or from the unknown end. At 19, I grew up without any love. I only felt the love from my ex-boyfriend, with whom we have been separated for more than 3 years. The reason for our separation is in me, I did something very mean and I know that there is no going back. I cheated on him out of stupidity and later I get what I deserve. Now I am with a man I don't love and he doesn't deserve me in any way, but he connects us with something for life - OUR CHILD !!! He is now 2 years old, but he understands that his father does not love him and does everything just like that. Everything was fine until I gave birth, then his parents intervened. I haven't had a moment of peace since then, I'm the black sheep. They are always dissatisfied with everything, they always try to correct me in every case, especially when it comes to the child. My husband, of course, is still a mother's child and he can't understand that he already has another family, he is constantly waiting for everything to be ready. In most cases, I feel sorry for him because I am without parental support, but I am fighting for the life I have had. Before, it hurt me when he called me a blockbuster and a bunch of other insults in public, when he attacked me, and now he does it, but it doesn't hurt me, I'm indifferent !!! My child only gives me strength, which is everything for me, but I am not the ideal mother, because of the daily mental harassment I do not have the strength sometimes. All I know is that I have to get out of this house where I have been unwanted from the beginning. But when ... I can't live with such a person, but I still don't have the courage to say no !!! I hope I find the courage soon .... I hope, but then where ?? constantly waiting for everything to be ready. In most cases, I feel sorry for him because I am without parental support, but I am fighting for the life I have had. Before, it hurt me when he called me a blockbuster and a bunch of other insults in public, when he attacked me, and now he does it, but it doesn't hurt me, I'm indifferent !!! My child only gives me strength, which is everything for me, but I am not the ideal mother, because of the daily mental harassment I do not have the strength sometimes. All I know is that I have to get out of this house where I have been unwanted from the beginning. But when ... I can't live with such a person, but I still don't have the courage to say no !!! I hope I find the courage soon .... I hope, but then where ??? constantly waiting for everything to be ready. In most cases, I feel sorry for him because I am without parental support, but I am fighting for the life I have had. Before, it hurt me when he called me a blockbuster and a bunch of other insults in public, when he attacked me, and now he does it, but it doesn't hurt me, I'm indifferent !!! My child only gives me strength, which is everything for me, but I am not the ideal mother, because of the daily mental harassment I do not have the strength sometimes. All I know is that I have to get out of this house where I have been unwanted from the beginning. But when ... I can't live with such a person, but I still don't have the courage to say no !!! I hope I find the courage soon .... I hope, but then where ??? when he called me blockchain and a bunch of other insults in public, when he attacked me, and now he does it, but it doesn't hurt me, I'm indifferent !!! My child only gives me strength, which is everything for me, but I am not the ideal mother, because of the daily mental abuse I do not have the strength sometimes. All I know is that I have to get out of this house where I have been unwanted from the beginning. But when ... I can't live with such a person, but I still don't have the courage to say no !!! I hope I find the courage soon .... I hope, but then where ??? when he called me blockchain and a bunch of other insults in public, when he attacked me, and now he does it, but it doesn't hurt me, I'm indifferent !!! My child only gives me strength, which is everything for me, but I am not the ideal mother, because of the daily mental harassment I do not have the strength sometimes. All I know is that I have to get out of this house where I have been unwanted from the beginning. But when ... I can't live with such a person, but I still don't have the courage to say no !!! I hope I find the courage soon .... I hope, but then where ??? which I have been unwanted from the beginning. But when ... I can't live with such a person, but I still don't have the courage to say no !!! I hope I find the courage soon .... I hope, but then where ??? which I have been unwanted from the beginning. But when ... I can't live with such a person, but I still don't have the courage to say no !!! I hope I find the courage soon .... I hope, but then where ???

Last Updated
October 02, 2020
Author:
aaronbuford

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