When Your "everything" Leaves ...

The Story

Hello! A 24-year-old girl writes, in the words of my acquaintances: very good and beautiful. In my words: terribly confused, sad, lonely, I even gained weight from grief, I got sick ... I ask you, people, for advice, courage, strength! Because I don't have; (Until a few years ago I was very radiant, happy, I hadn't even imagined that this hole I've been in for about a year or two could exist! I never wanted much from life, but ordinary, simple things. I graduated, I work in the profession and so on. When I was a child I always played with a lot of children, I had friends, I never wandered and I was not bored. But when I grew up I don't know why things changed I got involved with a boy of 12-13 years of child labor, but 7-8 years passed in which we were inseparable and separated due to circumstances and I experienced this separation a lot, very painful. We were close. From there, my life went awry, or maybe I've stopped being the same since then. I'm not saying I still love my boyfriend, I don't even think about it, but it happened and I'm not the same anymore. I found a new friend, much more handsome, smart, with goals than the previous one. I fell in love with him a lot, I fell in love with him and so two years have passed since we were together. He is my everything - my best friend, my support ... everything, everything! I feel very close to him. We almost lived together and my daily life was very much connected with him. Also, in my family, my parents don't understand each other and I avoid being at home because the tension is a hell of a burden, I can't stand it. However, the problem deepened because my friend was driving a truck and went abroad to work there for three months and one here. He's been gone for a week, and I keep roaring. And his life is not easy, but I do not stop crying. I stay at home because I have nowhere to go. There is almost no one to call, to rely on, to cry. I am very heavy, I have lost desire for absolutely everything, even for my favorite activities. I constantly stand in a room and roar and I don't feel like doing anything, I don't feel like going out, I don't feel like eating. We talk to him on the phone, but I cry and just burden him too. I want to stop, but I can't. I get distracted for a moment and start again just thinking of something. as everything reminds me of him. I don't know what to do, I can't go to him because he lives in a truck, I have nothing to do here either. I live in a small town, we all know each other. Hardly anyone can help me; (; (; (I don't know how it will last I don't want to find another, I love my friend very, very much;

Last Updated
September 15, 2020
Author:
liliagold

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