When The Sun Will Rise

The Story

I will start with a short presentation - I am 22, last year a student at Sofia University with 200 credits and 3 failed exams, I am a shopkeeper, two days a week, I also develop something like an online store. I had a girlfriend, we were together for 6 years, but we broke up. Although a year and a half has passed, I am still very sad for her and I would like to meet again. My father, God forbid, had a serious vice, but a year ago he killed him in the trade and from nothing he developed a small online store and everything went up. Unfortunately, he died a month ago, just when I saw a role model in his face. In 2017, my girlfriend left me and I thought it couldn't get any worse, but life hit me even harder, taking away my father. He died from today to tomorrow, had a heart attack, and was a young man, not even 50 years old, and there was no chance of his death, no. So my family lost a very valuable member and left a huge gap, my grandparents buried their son, my mother was left a widow of 46 years, and my uncle completely collapsed. Now I will describe the problems related to me - I don't have a lot of money, I look normal, I am neither ugly nor beautiful from those people who will not make any impression on you. I tried to go out with a girl, but my fear led to the friendship. My fear comes from the fact that I'm not gifted at all - on the border between small and medium size, tending to small, which crushes my self-esteem, and I want my father to be proud of me, to have a girlfriend again and like everyone else to have family, but alas, things in life sit quite differently from our romantic notions. So the combination I represent seems more than awful - without a father, without a girlfriend, with a rather modest size, my profession is nothing special, I will not finish on time and I do not see what I could give a girl to be with me. I often wonder if the sun will finally rise and if something good will happen to me, because the last two years my life has turned 360 degrees, and to be honest I don't see any prospect of things going up. Thanks to everyone who will read the long post, I don't know why I'm writing it, maybe I need to hear some other story of courage, or just pour out my soul somewhere, albeit anonymously! and to be honest, I don't see any prospect of things going up. Thanks to everyone who will read the long post, I don't know why I'm writing it, maybe I need to hear some other story of courage, or just pour out my soul somewhere, albeit anonymously! and to be honest, I don't see any prospect of things going up. Thanks to everyone who will read the long post, I don't know why I'm writing it, maybe I need to hear some other story of courage, or just pour out my soul somewhere, albeit anonymously!

Last Updated
November 10, 2020
Author:
bmkibler

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