Hello :). I have been following the stories on this site for years and I have often found understanding in the comments. I will try to recreate my 'problem', I hope I will be able to help solve it later. I am a second year student in Sofia, majoring in computer science. So far I could not complain about my choice, but lately something has changed. Not that I don't like doing programs and doing it. On the contrary, it's fun and interesting for me. But I'm terribly lazy, and the matter is not light. I feel how far behind I am and how I can't handle anything. From there they started thinking how I can't do in life. That's where it all begins. I live in a dormitory and feel relatively well about the conditions on offer. I have never lived in affluence, no matter how much I wanted to. I was deprived a lot in my childhood and now it seems that I give them somehow more freely, I spend money on destruction and I don't do my bill at all. And this comes at the expense of my mother, who handles me on her own. I want to start a job in my specialty, but at the same time I don't feel qualified enough and somehow I postpone it. I don't have many friends, and the ones I dated until recently found halves and I stayed in the background. Here comes my other pain - I don't know how to talk about love. I have never fallen in love, I stand aside and do not let anyone near me. Not that the men killed themselves to attack me. I have no self-confidence and this is felt. I am immersed in myself, I am closed and I constantly feel only my mistakes. I feel like the biggest failure in the world. And I want to one day be someone, to be happy and loved. The problem is, that I have no motivation to do anything and time is running out. Any ideas how I can fix all this?
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With money ! it will be easier. Thanks for the good specialty. It seems normal to be difficult. I don't want to scare you, but from now on it will be even harder. Maybe those who repeated that the teen years are the sweetest were right after all!