When?

So from 8th grade I started smoking weed, then I started training fitness and taking nitrogen boosters, creatine, protein, amino acids and others. Many times in the evening, when I went out with friends, when I got drunk, blood came out of my nose and my head hurt, but I didn't stop. I went to discos regularly, drank alcohol and smoked everything. And one night in 9th grade I think I tried amphetamine I liked and I started sniffing at a disco almost every week to drink, smoke and so on until 12th grade. I didn't stop the supplements, many people told me that it was not good to combine them, but I did it and I didn't care. Yes, but alas, 6 to 7 months ago, amphetamine did not start to affect me as nicely and coolly as before, marijuana depressed me and the supplements started to fuck my liver and get drunk very quickly. I decided that if I continued like this I would not spend much time and I stopped everything at once. So I haven't taken anything for 3 months now.

But after I stopped, I started to be afraid of many things. I didn't go out, I had bad dreams, they haunted me, no matter how funny it sounded. I usually live alone, but in the end a lot of thoughts started in my head and I told my parents about everything I had done in the last 4 years, because when I tried to talk to some friend from the "gang" they laughed and made fun of me. I started going to school but I was constantly worried, nervous, I couldn't relax and I was constantly thinking about some stupid things. So for 1 2 months. I started training kickboxing for 1 week somewhere but during the training I feel pain in the liver but for a short time. Now I understand how difficult everything is without any supplements and drugs. But when will my psyche recover completely and when will I stop being nervous.