Hello. I am 23 years old from a small town in Bulgaria. I study law. However, I do not feel like it at all, as with most mental and intellectual obstacles along the way. I feel that I make an incredible effort to achieve even a small result, but when an exam comes to me, exercises with a practical focus, I myself become entangled in my own ignorance. I get relatively good grades, but against the background of diligence and diligence, they are ridiculous. I feel that there is no way to help people, to give them the right advice. Here comes the problem. Periodically, as my apparent retardation accumulates, I become depressed (at least that's how my doctor describes it). I explain to her in detail how my thinking and logic are somehow dulled, and she says that one should be happy with what he is. How can I be happy with being stupid at the table. I took some pills in the process of the so-called "disease", but I think it has a root cause and it is a consequence of my mental problems. I feel that I forget things so quickly that I don't understand them, that I don't understand them and I don't realize them. Reading a book is the same story - the book passes me by, I can't even form an opinion or remember characters for more than 1 week. If I don't read it during this period - everything goes to hell. Watching a movie is identical - I do not understand and often can not grasp the idea and the event as a whole. Then I watch children aged 15-16 passionately comment and get excited. How to enjoy what I have, to be happy in my own way, when things are not going well. I have often thought of suicide. I am in the same period now, the same situation. I don't want to go to the doctor - he will tell me the same things again and he will prescribe me pills again. In 3-4 months everything will be "the same", but again I will go like shit in the university (and now outside it) unperceived, misunderstood and unthinking. I want this fixed, but it doesn't work. Please help with advice - I will be grateful. I think there are people here who are more than one doctor with memorized cues. thanks
1 _moonlight_c answered
I am in the same situation, with the difference that I am a girl and I am 25 !!! I am writing to tell you that you are not alone. And I hope someone writes with a proposal to solve the problem, because I don't know the algorithm. I give you a hug!