What Should I Do? I Want It Back ..

Hello! :) I'll start straight .. I had a friend (we're both 17, if anyone is interested) with whom we were together for almost a year and a half. We were a long-distance relationship, but we saw each other relatively often. However, things "ended" about two weeks ago. I say it in quotes because I don't even know exactly what's going on. He told me that when we are together he feels happy and loved, but when the time comes for everyone to return home, it is somehow strange. His feelings were not exactly the same. I understand it to some extent, because when we talk on the phone, even I am not the same as I would be live. However, both he and I still want to see and hear each other. We last saw each other yesterday for the weekend, because theirs had a holiday and they invited me. We had a great time, but we still behaved like boyfriends. We couldn't stand looking at each other without even hugging. He told me that now he somehow wanted to be alone and that in time, if it was written to us, we could be together again. It sounds filmed, but I still think that we will always be connected in some way. I feel he loves me and I know it. I love him too, but the problem is that we are literally not together, but in fact neither one nor the other thinks so. I don't think that even if we find new partners we will be able to stop thinking about each other. I do not understand the situation itself. Everything is very confused. When I was leaving, his mother offered me the vacation we have at the beginning of November to see each other again, just for a longer time, when I just smiled, and when we went out he sent me to look at me and told me that he could actually see you then. I was very happy, but I don't understand it. He says that he doesn't want us to be bullied, but by his actions he shows me that he wants us to be together, as he has been so far. He doesn't want to see me that often, but he still wants to see me. He doesn't want us to hear each other so often, but he still wants it ... Almost both this and that. In this way, I think we will be harassed even more and it will be even harder.

Please advice what to do. I want to get him back, but if we continue with this "friendly" relationship, I will not be able to bear him, and he will still receive my care and love again, and the goal is to feel my absence and then I think the chance to ask to be together again becomes bigger. Many people are so divided, but in the end they realize which of the two things they really want, and I don't think he knows at the moment. I know you're going to say he still said he wanted to be alone, but I explained his actions and I think it's just a momentary situation and there's a good chance he wants us to get back together. If I feel it - there is a reason and my goal is to cause just that. I wouldn't ask for advice on what to do to get it back if I really see that he doesn't want to be with me. There's really no other girl I'm convinced of, not just because he told me to. Maybe stopping all this will help him realize what he really wants. So I ask you- What would be better for the situation? Should I take the risk of trying to stop everything because our chances increase or continue to see each other, behave like a couple and suffer even more. Again, the point here is not to talk and not see each other, but not to suffer by longing for each other. I know he'll be with me again if he wants to, but I don't believe that he even knows what he wants at the moment. Please advice how to act to be together again. I will be happy for my topic to help other people as well. Thank you in advance!