What Now !? Where ...?

Ohhh .... I missed him a lot ... I'm almost 16, he's already 26 .... When I was 14 I met a boy - from a common company (my parents, which is the worst). ... I didn't believe in love. I said - I'm small, I won't have a boyfriend, I can't like a boy now or I even wondered if it's normal not to look at me and not me .... To tell you the truth, I looked smaller and not mature, but now it's not like that ... He first looked for me as if he was joking on the social network while he was with my parents .... When I saw him and we just met .... Appearance - great .... Funny, charming, amazing .... He left, we didn't see each other anymore and he doesn't want to anymore .... We became friends on social networks .... There we had jokes, interesting events .... Until he cooled down. I continued, I was more active. And he was looking at me, I'm sure .... But .... at one point He 'evaporated' .... Later I found out that he was engaged .... I was going to die of pain .... I am still in pain and crying .... He, He is not Bulgarian .... he is of Arab origin .... I decided to be brave .... everyone understood that he changed me and broke me .... I was shy and closed .... I told him ... that I love him .... He disappeared ... I didn't stop .... He made him laugh first .... He told me he saw me as a friend. That he has found a wife and that there is no way to get - 10 years difference .... I cried, cried .... It still does not pass .... He also used kind words, such as 'sweet', beloved and sweet .. .. Apart from the fact that the girls from his company obviously envy me ... I didn't stop. I slipped his future wife's brother .... He thought I was taking him down .... I said that guy wasn't right for his sister .... I went out .... But 'that guy' turned out to be smarter .... found me .... started insulting me and said that he would tell my father the next day ... I would die of horror. I begged him. In the end, he didn't. I told my mother. She no longer trusts me ... I created problems for him with everyone. He erased me from everywhere ... now I'm scared. I think I'll apologize to him, but I don't know how he'll react. I'm scared and it hurts. I love him to hell .... Even right now I'm sad again .... Please post my story ....