What Now?!? I Feel Bad After Kissing My Colleague

The Story

I am 22 years old and I have had a serious relationship for 3 years. My friend and I have understood from the very beginning of our relationship that we are serious. Things are going more or less, but there is a small problem, I can't remember when we haven't had sex. We haven't been for 8 months for sure, but it could be a year, or a year or so ... I just don't remember. We're either tired or we don't have time and I don't know what ... Otherwise everything else is ok. He takes care of me, we go to the cinema, to a restaurant, he gives me flowers, etc., but there is no sex. I changed jobs a few months ago and then met the colleague in question. In the beginning, nothing special, we talk, we work, the usual things change. Until that day. We talked about his relationship, about my relationship. I told him I was monogamous (which is true). And word for word, he decided he wanted a kiss, to understand how we will feel later. It was a new emotion for both of us. At first I took it as a joke, nooo we finally kissed ... And that's where the problem comes from (or not !?!) We both liked it a lot. At one point it became clear to him how much he liked (remember) he became more ... insistent. I stopped him. It all ended there. But I found out I had forgotten what it was like to be with an aroused man. It was strange to me when I felt it, somehow unfamiliar. Basically, this is a condition of men that I adore. It gives us women special power (giggles). But here I have forgotten what it is. My body also reacts quite ... violently ... And now I don't know ... I'm confused. I'm not sick (which is strange) but I find cracks in the relationship with the person with whom I thought I was going to grow old ... and now ... I don't regret the kiss with my colleague. He showed me what I miss, but now where? !?

Last Updated
July 28, 2020
Author:
zoe_sweet6

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