What Is Your View On My 'crazy' Case?

The Story

Hello. I will try to describe things briefly ... A 30-year-old man. I went to various psychiatrists and even to the hospital once for quite a long time / at my request / where they did an ECT without any visible effect. I was included in the Military Medical Academy TMS against obsessive thoughts, but something scared me from this machine and I did not feel anything as an effect of it. With the idea of ​​getting rid of what was documented on paper about my condition, one day I threw it in the trash. I have never been able to understand in this whole story what my diagnosis is ... my pains and horrors - for many years I have been living with the thought of what bad could happen as a result of my carelessness and wrong action and the corresponding counter-thought - to look back mentally what could have really happened through my fault. For a long time I would say that these thoughts are a thing of the past. I haven't taken pills for probably 5 years. There was another problem that poisoned me, to put it mildly - the thought came up that if I was really mentally ill, would I not pass this on to children and / or grandchildren, and how the hell would I deal with that thought let alone if I don't solve this question right now, I can't look back at the opposite sex and find a girlfriend and live a normal life. Thanks! // my opinion about medications and visits to "psycho doctors" is extremely clear - this will never happen again.

Last Updated
October 01, 2020
Author:
ethanwhite

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