What Is To Be A Good Man?

The Story

In many moments of my life, I wonder "Am I a good person"? On some days I feel like a good person, in another I feel like the worst. I wonder what it's to be a good person? To be at peace with yourself? For me it is a constant striving, choosing the solutions that every day we do, confronted with different situations. I participate in charitable actions, judging trees, I'm involved in cleanings and things related to the common good. I consider this a positive selfishness. Just to do good is good for yourself and I do it for myself so I feel good. But at another moment I wonder when you get into a situation with a bad person, a person who is unpleasant, does evil, etc. I just can't stand indifferent. For example, we have a teacher who behaves offensively with students. It hurts us all the time, and besides malice and intimidation, it doesn't come out. He is harassing the trainees mentally, just because he is in this post teacher and has the right. He's killing his personal complexes in the family most likely. According to the perfectly satisfying definition of a sociopath. On the other hand, I see the students, some of them are very good people and they are extremely tolerant of insults and malice directed against them. Others boil the head and let them be refracted. I am the black sheep in such a situation and at the slightest injustice to me or the other interfere and I start to fight with it. As a result, I feel bad, in my thoughts, hatred appears, which is not inherent to me. At the end of the day, I feel squeezed for defending the good and the truth. And others who bend their head and relate tolerant to such individuals have been burdened less by me and ultimately have greater peace than I do. Uncracking is healthy. At times like this, I wonder if I'm a bad person? Am I bad for hating fools and bullies? At times I meditate on some monks and spiritual people, how they isolate themselves from the world, and rely on the good. They're okay, they're in a place where there are no idiots, and there's no one to quarrel with, but are they not a kind of people other than psychos? If you see a man on the road stealing a bag, won't you catch him and beat him? Is that a bad man? Or are you going to act that you haven't noticed, and you're going to church the next day? Why do I feel bad, and they are satisfied with themselves? I've always wanted to live somewhere far away from the idiots and to reconcile myself, to be at peace, but after a long time, I'm seeing another one doing injustice and going crazy.

Last Updated
May 28, 2020
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