Hello, I am a 15-year-old girl, everyone knows me cheerful, but no one knows my problems .. Where to start - MONEYLESS !!! I can't wait to think about ending my life for a few days, I don't want you to tell me to be strong and support my parents because I can't anymore! So I start to tell or more precisely to complain - I go to school for 1 week with 1 BGN so as not to spend money, and when they ask me why I don't buy anything, I lie that I am on a diet. I'm young, I need clothes, make-up - and I'm human, but I don't have money or I buy clothes from savings. My father went to work very hard, but he was laid off and now he goes to the fields for BGN 15, he goes early in the morning and comes late in the evening all rotten ... My heart aches when I look at him (we are from a village) ... My mother years ago she was very ill and that didn't allow her to work, now she is in pain again but she has no money and she is patient and my heart hurts for her. My father has been a half-orphan since he was a child, without a father and his mother threw him at his aunts and uncles ... My father does not communicate with his mother and she has not given me BGN 1 from my whole conscious life. My grandfather on my mother's side is poor and he can't help ... We have a loan, versions in the shops, and I give them the money I collect from holidays. From the class they go on an excursion, I never am and I can't stand it anymore ... I don't want to live, what is this life and the last one ruined me for May 1, they will go on a hike and collect BGN 5 each, BGN 5 ... I don't have any dirty BGN 5 and no one is at home, except to take half of my father's money, which he earned with sweat and work in the sun for one hike. Will they have an end to this will they have ?? They can't go abroad again because they don't have money .. I'm sorry to bother you, but I can't stand it, I'll burst! And to point out that I am of Roma origin or Turkish, pure Bulgarian and this is not a begging but just an outpouring of the soul!
1 bustydelle answered
don't suffer for money. His manna on the hike, his manna on make-up and without make-up you are beautiful, you still have some clothes. Do not let greed and vanity defeat you. In the way you express yourself at the age of about 15-16, now you do not realize and think superficially, but over the years you will reproach yourself for how you could have been so superficial and selfish. My school years were just like yours, I suffered and cried for things bought with money, but over time I replaced the grumbling with a new blouse, lipstick, with the desire not to be a burden to my mother and father. By not bringing in income at home, I have learned to be content and happy with what I have, if there is money left for something new, I am happy and grateful. Otherwise, there are many good moments waiting for you, no matter how ridiculous it sounds to you at this stage, have faith. The first job is waiting for you, the first money you make ... this is a very good time to know. For starters, I suggest you take a summer vacation to go to the field with your father. They will take you as a picker, and it is not so difficult and tiring as long as you are not bored