Hello, I was born in '96, I don't know where to start and I will go back a bit, where I think my problems started. In 2016 we broke up with my girlfriend, whom I loved very much and I was ready for anything for her. As a result of the separation, I started abusing smoking weed, and from there I started selling, getting involved with inappropriate people. I've always been jealous, and when she caught up with (let's call it the neighborhood's eyes) I just couldn't leave things like that, this man was the most artificial manipulator that could exist, and even though we were already irretrievably separated from her, no. I could leave it at that. With my connections and a huge dose of luck, I realized that the mutagen in question has a greenhouse for grass and I dumped him lying in jail, ashamed, but to this day I do not regret it.
After the breakup, I dropped out of university and just had to change my environment in an attempt to forget it. I spent a year in England and returned. Since then (2, 5 years!) I do not have a single working day (I still have money for rainy days) I continue to smoke weed, although I have stopped sporadically twice in 1 month. The last year and a half have been accompanied by almost constant depression, I have been socially isolated, I have stopped almost all contacts, I met 2019 and 2020 alone, although I was invited to villas and bars, it's just as if people are drinking my energy, it's strange to explain I also feel some anxiety if I'm among a lot of people, I don't know why, but the casual looks of passers-by, I often perceive as evil, arrogant and ridiculous, and it seems to eat me from within. I've become apathetic and I'm making up all sorts of excuses, so that I don't go out when they call me somewhere .. I neglected myself, I rarely shaved, I lost about 12 kg and I feel as if my limbs atrophy, I can't sleep at night, but if I fall asleep - I sleep for a long time .. I started to hear voices that as if they were my own thoughts about myself - that I smoke weed, that I am garbage, a drug addict at the age of 23, and I still live with my mother, my father, and my brother ... but then I heard the neighbor use the coffee machine and I calmed down that I am not schizophrenic, but I'm still sure that the neighbors are constantly talking and discussing me.
As we spotted each other at the entrance, it was as if I could catch their thoughts with just a glance and know what they were thinking. I've always said to myself that I don't care about people's opinions, but I always seem to care, because we still live in a society, even if it's sick ... in the rare cases when I go out, it always happens in the evening, Honestly, I don't remember the last time I went out during the day, maybe I'll buy cigarettes ... I believe in karma! My mother and father are workaholics and have always told me: "you will become like your uncle", he is a drug addict and still lives with his mother without working, but of course I am guilty, I do not shift the blame on ours in anyway way, but it's like what you're saying is happening ... I have enough money left to go back to work and train - to distract my strange thoughts and try to get back to reality, but I think I should also visit a psychiatrist or at least a psychologist.
I will be happy to write your opinion as I have a lot of symptoms of schizophrenic personality disorder he is a drug addict and still lives with his mother without working, but of course, I am to blame, I do not shift the blame on ours in any way, but it seems that what you say happens ... I have enough money left to leave to push and train again - to distract my strange thoughts and try to return to reality, but I think I should visit a psychiatrist or at least a psychologist. I will be happy to write your opinion as I have a lot of symptoms of schizophrenic personality disorder he is a drug addict and still lives with his mother without working, but of course, I am to blame, I do not shift the blame on ours in any way, but it seems that what you say happens ...
I have enough money left to leave to push and train again - to distract my strange thoughts and try to return to reality, but I think I should visit a psychiatrist or at least a psychologist. I will be happy to write your opinion as I have a lot of symptoms of schizophrenic personality disorder or at least a psychologist. I will be happy to write your opinion as I have a lot of symptoms of schizophrenic personality disorder or at least a psychologist. I will be happy to write your opinion as I have a lot of symptoms of schizophrenic personality disorder
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The idea of consulting a specialist is good, just as prevention. I don't think you're okay, just stop the garbage. Your diagnosis is an asshole. It is unlikely that those around them care about you, but you know who you are, and that is why it is a feeling that those around you are watching you. If you have the opportunity, it is best to isolate yourself abroad, it will be like a commune, just isolate yourself.