Hello. I am a 22-year-old girl. A few years ago, I met a boy in Tinder, but then I was just interested in meeting new people. We went out, he liked me right away and he wrote it to me in the evening. Even then I explained to him that things would not work out between us, but we could be friends. I really like him a lot, he's great and he's very handsome, but I was missing something. He felt sick, but we kept going out as friends.
I started a new relationship, he too. This relationship of mine ended, I started another one, in the meantime, we went out, although rarely. And I really only saw him all the time as a friend. His girlfriend didn't know me personally, but she was very jealous of me, they argued. I understand her perfectly, I would also react in exactly the same way. My boyfriend to go out with a girl - in my head, of course, she will not be just his girlfriend.
That's why I understand her, but then there was really no reason for jealousy, the boy and I neither flirted nor anything more than friendly conversations. And he told me he loved her. He's just freedom-loving. It so happened that we ended our relationship at the same time. In the summer we started seeing each other often. In the evening we sat on the sand by the sea. It was a romantic moon, stars, summer breeze.
Suddenly I started wanting him. He must have felt it because he kissed me. We kissed for a long time. And so several times until we had sex. We made it clear that we would no longer be friends. We did it a second time. Without exaggeration, I have not had better sex .. This is not inherent in me, it happens to me for the first time and on the one hand, I am disgusted with myself, and on the other hand, I do not regret it.
Maybe good sex made me want it so much. But we suddenly stopped seeing each other. I invite him to see you, of course, then cancel the appointment. Then I invite him again, he refuses. I don't know what to think. Somewhere I feel used, but on the other hand, it is not. We have always been in a great relationship, for me, he is a wonderful person.
He was so careful while we did it, darling. It didn't look like he was using me. But then why haven't we heard from each other for a month? I want him again, but if he looks for me and we see each other, I wouldn't sleep with him again, because it turns out that this is the only reason he is looking for me.
Give me advice. What do you think? I really hope the moderators upload my story. Thanks!