What Future Does My Relationship Have?

The Story

Hello! I didn't think I would get here and have to write about it, but here it is. My boyfriend is 10 years older than me and we have been in a relationship for 7 months. During these months, however, we experienced and continue to experience a complete nightmare. We fight almost every day, he starts attacking me and threatening to knock out my teeth, he becomes aggressive at times and I'm scared, but I'm such a character that I don't leave my donkey in the mud, I start to oppose him and to retaliate with verbal attacks, but I know that the border is very thin and will always touch me, because he always wants me to be silent. Every time the same - driving, collecting luggage, killings, tears and slamming doors. But I seem to have missed the most important thing ... the worst is happening ... I'm smoking, my nerves can't stand it and I'm starting to hit him with my hands, but he is stronger than me and starts twisting my arms and knocking me to the ground and shouting at me ... I know that what I am writing is crazy, but this is our relationship ... I love him, very much, but something constantly makes me pick on him and there are always scandals about something. He's not bad either, but he behaves like a man and wants him to command and listen to him, but I'm not like that. We live together, but I have a habit of chasing him away from us, but only after we've fought or broken everything. So far he hasn't hit me hard, but he's threatening me, and I'm going crazy.

I don't know how to describe it, but I see the end. In these 7 months we have quarreled at least 100 times and he collected his luggage at least 20 times ... But he came back. And he can't do without me, as I can, but to this day we can't fit in with the characters. In total we are 2 sharp stones. He on the one hand with his strength and rudeness, and I am his big mouth as he says. But that's how I am, bold, uncompromising and brave. But I'm afraid it won't hurt me because I live with my parents and I don't want them to witness it. I'm not afraid of the pain or that it will bleed my mouth. On the contrary ... He is my first serious friend, he even recently bought me a car with his own money, I try not to irritate him, to reduce disputes and scandals to a minimum, but at times I go crazy and I don't know what I'm doing, and he starts screaming at me, squeezing me in the corner and threatening me how he was going to hit me with two slaps and so on ... When I hear this and I don't know what's happening to me ... Tell me what to do ... even a while ago , before I write here, we quarreled again and another luggage collection followed ... In a few days there will be text messages and apologies from me just to get along, because I love him very much ... We have only scandals and rare moments when we are good ... The truth is that I I pamper him a lot, I please him for everything and I try not to quarrel, but almost always, when we quarrel, I freak out and hell begins. I go crazy when he starts twisting my arms and threatening me and I jump at him and I don't know when he will seriously touch me, but I can't keep quiet and swallow him. I tell myself that he will never squat and let him do with me what he wants ... I don't know what to do anymore ... as we quarrel and I freak out and hell begins. I go crazy when he starts twisting my arms and threatening me and I jump at him and I don't know when he will seriously touch me, but I can't keep quiet and swallow him. I tell myself that he will never squat and let him do with me what he wants ... I don't know what to do anymore ... as we quarrel and I freak out and hell begins. I go crazy when he starts twisting my arms and threatening me and I jump at him and I don't know when he will seriously touch me, but I can't keep quiet and swallow him. I tell myself that he will never squat and let him do with me what he wants ... I don't know what to do anymore ...

Last Updated
September 19, 2020
Author:
modestmouse

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