What Do You Mean By "Great Love"?

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Hello. I wonder how you distinguish the temporary from the great love. Do you think that the great one exists at all and can she be a person with whom you spent some time, but you do not stop thinking about each other. At least I don't stop thinking about a man who came into my life by accident. It had never happened to me before. Soon there was a topic about a woman who can't forget a 14-year-old man. Eee, I'm only 1 year old, but I don't stop thinking about this person, so suddenly or with a song or a place I'm in. Everything emerges as an emotion and stiffens me and makes me shiver, I get chills, and I'm not one of the most sensitive people I would say. But he can only get me into this state. / I am 26 and it has not happened to me so far /. The truth is, I broke up with him twice because of some factors, which are quite respectful and I don't want to mention them. I know he was dying for me, he couldn't imagine passing a day without saying good morning and good night without hearing me. All I know is that we looked for each other again and again and it seemed like there was no difference and we continued for a short time because of these obstacles.

Maybe I was impatient. I do not know. He had written to me "I miss you" and after 4 months not a word or news from this man. Now another 8 months have passed in which I don't know how he is, what he is doing. He is not active on Facebook, otherwise I would look like that to know that he is fine. I would like to write to him. Not that I own it, I want to know how it is, is it good, is it happy and just tell me something ... related to our common things we had as a hobby. We are divided by many things, a fact. It's been a long time and he probably doesn't think about me, so it would be complete nonsense to write to him. But it eats me up. And if he, like me, often thinks of me and thinks the same way. I wouldn't do it first, because it hurt me a lot last time. I experienced it hard. I walked sick for two months. But that doesn't give me peace - if he thinks of me too. He had told me before when we had some communication, "do you know I was right next to your job yesterday," and I "why didn't you come see me?" And he ... "I thought you wouldn't want to see me." What if he thinks of me now and thinks exactly that I don't want him to? Or maybe I'm just a good memory in his story. Do you believe that such things exist. Two people to think about each other. I don't believe in romantic nonsense and movies blah blah blah .... I want real things ... Is there this love, to know that you can't be with him, but to shudder at the thought of him, from the memory and still be realistic and just one conversation for 5 minutes twice a year? Not that it's enough for me, but it's better that way than not to see and hear it all my life ... Maybe I should leave things to time. If he decides he will bring us together .... What do you think?

Last Updated
August 25, 2020
Author:
leoz985

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