Hi. My story is this. I'm a BBC sexually i had a relationship with a girl for two years and six months during that time I went through a lot of grief, but i didn't know why I went crazy for love. She cheated on me a thousand times and I fought with my parents threatening me to get in trouble everywhere she would go out I would stand in the room and wait for her because we were together on dorms waiting for her to come home as she says goes to bed the next day she didn't get up I was going and she later went out I cried myself for hours , but nobody cared. On the last serious infidelity when I caught her I was ready to kill myself I thought then over things we left for a while but somehow my heart did not last and we got back together we went to summer work on the sea there we were fighting a lot and for the smallest thing (of course most times she was wrong) there I got a health problem and had to go home. She came home with me the next day we had a serious fight and I left her burning for days I hadn't eaten and cried, but I got back after 2 months she decided to look for me and pray and cry and cry and say she had changed, and I foolishly believed I came back 10 days after which I saw that change I didn't leave her many times then tried to come back and a lot of me he begged, but I was firm. I went on with my life, i was determined not to bother with girls anymore, but... Ah, this, but... I met a girl who had been through the same thing and decided to try the girl quite bandaged myself and I loved her gave me the necessary attention, but.... that again, but... it wasn't her. I missed her with all the cheating love with everything. now I'm alone and I don't know what to do all the time thinking about her, even though I said no a thousand times and i was tough. Should I look for her or continue, however difficult it may be (she now has a girlfriend, but I follow her on social media from a fake profile).? What am I supposed to do?