Hello, dear people!
My problem is this. My ex-boyfriend and I broke up and I still can't stop thinking about him. We met online. He lived abroad. He came back to Bulgaria because of me and we lived together. It was real love and attraction. We lived a little and decided to go looking for a better life. It is a cliché, but it is true that abroad gathers and divides. Things didn't work out. Everyday life became stressful and instead of being happy that we live well, everything turned around. In time we thought about separation and here it happened after a year and a half together. We loved each other a lot, but that was not enough. He felt like a prisoner, he wanted his former freedom, he didn't like that I turned him into a housewife. We didn't have time for social life - only work and everyday life. This weighed heavily, I could see that he was not happy, and we both made a brutal effort to get it.
We became estranged, the falling in love passed. He was constantly looking for a change, changing jobs every few months, no matter my opinion, on the other hand, I made decisions that he did not like. He also thought that I was constantly ignoring him ... And so, until finally we talked more and more about separation and it happened. Now is the time to say that I was the one who put an end to it, but in the end, it was the result of both people's thoughts. I'm not looking for culprits or anything. I love him, I'm sure he has feelings too, we just gave up fighting too quickly. We stopped keeping in touch on social media at my request. Now is the time to say that when it became clear what was going to happen, we continued to live together for two weeks, simply because one had nowhere to go. It was hell, but he left anyway.
In short, this is it. Two months have passed since we were not together, he returned to Bulgaria. I think he feels better now. I just still have feelings and I want to look for him.
P. n I know how naive everything sounds, but I can't get it out of my head. I am here for advice and thanks in advance to those who responded.