Hello, I want to say first that probably a lot of people will say "off .. again some teenage nonsense", well, it could be so and hardly anyone will really understand me, but I still decided to try. So a year and a half ago I met a boy on a dating site and decided to write to him, but I was almost sure he wouldn't answer me because he was too nice to pay attention to me, but alas, he wrote to me. We wrote to each other there for a while, but then he asked me for Skype, I gave it to him, of course we wrote to each other there for a while and we forgot for a while after that. I probably haven't written to him for half a year, maybe more. One day I decided to see what he was doing, this and that and I wrote to him. We liked each other and so we started writing to each other more often, more often more often until we reached a period in which we knew every second step as they say. After a while he confessed that he loved me and something inside me just made me shiver, something happened to me and since then he has been constantly in my head. I have the feeling that he is next to me, even though he is many, many kilometers away from here. We constantly fight and get along on Skype, it's like we live together, it's like it's here. He is very jealous of me, he gets sick when I started telling him about an incident and a boy was present in it ... he becomes hyper dumb. I'm sure he feels something for me because he treats me the way I treat someone I like. When I have a job and I don't write to him, he immediately starts calling where you are .. what are you doing .. He keeps telling me if we'll see each other one day, and sometimes he tells me "Stop, please .. I can't take it anymore .. I want to see you hugged .. where are you .. why are you so far away, I can't anymore, I love you too much ..; [[And the biggest problem is that I love him a thousand times more than him, I have the feeling that my life has no meaning, I have nothing to hope for if he doesn't have it. I wonder if this is fate or just an internet dump or something. You must have laughed a lot, and maybe not. And I can't describe it all exactly. Ok..here I don't know exactly what I'm looking for and what I want, maybe just some comment, advice or .. I don't know .. just something ..: S
1 jrradcliffe answered
It's a hobby on the Internet, and you're a teenager, of course. If you suffer so much, see yourself :) A personal meeting can never be replaced by a computer or a phone, or anything.