Hello I'm Ivan For almost 7 years CRAZY in love "living" with one person, I do not know how he made me fall in love with him when we first saw abe exactly Love at first sight. (I hate Cupid);) We met in the late summer of 2007 in Sunny Beach on the beach. He had come on holiday for a few days because of me he extended his vacation with 3 more nights then and now he lives in Western Europe. After about less than 3 weeks I got on the plane and went to him from the beginning everything was very good life that I want to have it all my life (be careful what he wishes you) life that was full of happiness everything was like in the movies we were constantly smiling, I will never forget how gray my eyes were when he saw me after work, those eyes were the best gift I had ever received. From the beginning we lived with other Bulgarians as roommates. (We thought we were lying to them that we were cousins and they pretended to believe us). After about 2 months we moved into a separate apartment small but comfortable everything was wonderful except for a Mexican who lived below us, but that's a different topic). By then, I had already started working in a bar as an assistant. But spring came and the birthday of my favorite day we spent it together but in the evening I had to go to work, I really wanted to be free tonight and spend it with my Angel but I was not allowed, but nothing he told me he would wait the bar to open and come to be with me to be together on the first birthday we spent together will be an amazing evening. But unfortunately the bar opened but he was not there after about half an hour I called him to ask where he was, and he told me that he was getting dressed and coming and I stopped the conversation and continued my work. But another hour passed and he was still gone (then we lived 200/300 meters from my job) then I called him again but this time his phone was turned off. So he continued until he finished work with unsuccessful attempts, but just after I finished and started to change my phone rang and then he explained to me how he lay down and fell asleep and his phone battery dropped and only now he woke up.
Anyway, I went home and went to bed but the next day he went to work and I opened his laptop but then the truth came after he had not closed the windows with which he surfed I saw that my lover did not sleep at all and even had company during the time I was at work (he made himself a gift) anyway I made the scandal after he came home but unfortunately I forgave him and everything was "normal" until this year my life went on the same way. (scandals, infidelities, and insults) In most infidelities, I close my eyes but there are days when you can't close them. Last year things got worse, he started constantly insulting me (here are some of the insults --- a simpleton, an animal, a freak, plague, and many others) the problem is that I can't part with him because I love him more than I do and I can't stop loving him, and I love him very much I just can't live without him the only way to stop him I love to stop living.
I've told him many times that these insults hurt me a lot, but he doesn't care, the only thing he cares about is what other people will say, not me whether I'm going to live or not. Last night I took a whole blister pill that causes suffocation, but unfortunately, I did not suffocate and now I am writing to you here because I do not know what to do. Let my story serve as an example. When your half-brother cheats on you the first time you find out, think about whether you will not find yourself in my situation in a few years, because the grandmothers from my area say ------- A dog once eats a la * but it will never stop. Please tell me what to do, how can I live as I can't live this life anymore, but I can't live without this person. Please help me, this is not a story of a 14/15-year-old, this is a story of a 27-year-old man
1 bigsack11111 answered
You know ... it might help if you ask yourself: What do you love about it? Make a list of positive and negative traits, but be extremely honest with yourself. This has helped me in very difficult situations. I delineate into positive / negative and write. And I cry and write and finally: here is the TRUTH - I knew it myself. It's a bit like you're obsessed with him because he ignores you and you keep such good memories. And somehow you want to be surreal again. Only that life is here and now. Get rid of him! Go out, have fun, meet other people. Go somewhere if you can. Find a hobby that is only yours - enroll in courses. Do something for yourself and sleep thinking about how he betrayed your feelings and how he cheated on you, because if you hurt yourself, no one will be grateful to you or anything. You just have to look for inner strength, grab your hair by yourself and pull yourself out in the sun. You are still young. You know what love and what happiness they might be waiting for around the corner, where you don't want to go now. Just go and live with hope, with a dream. These moments are always very difficult. And I swallowed pills, I got to flushing - it was very nasty. Years later, I clearly realize that I loved a man who was completely selfish and disgusted by myself. Success! that I loved a man who was perfectly selfish and I was disgusted by myself. Success! that I loved a man who was perfectly selfish and I was disgusted by myself. Success!