Voltage ..

Hello! A 16-year-old girl writes to you. So, I've had a weight problem since I was a child. While I was in 5th-6th grade, I wasn't particularly impressed, but after I changed schools, I started to notice how different I was from the other girls. I am currently 167 cm, 77 kg. A month ago, I finally decided to start a seriously healthier lifestyle and really worked - I lost 5 kg during this period, although I had small breaks. And I continue in the same way, I'm determined. The problem is that people around me don't understand me. I have a friend who I think really loves me, but at the same time he doesn't mind changing, he even encouraged me and no, it's not for health reasons. My mother took me to the doctors because she thought the problem was healthy, but I knew it wasn't and that I was to blame for my condition. I tried to explain it to her, but she got angry because I "refused" her help. We did a few hormonal tests and they turned out to be extremely good, despite my weight. She still keeps pressing me, I stopped the jam, most types of meat and pasta, I exercise every day for at least 20 minutes (at home), but it is not enough for her. It was difficult for me to do all this, I put in a lot of effort, and I don't even find understanding. When I was little (about 12 years old) I was taken to take diet pills, which were not cheap. Without any success. Now she wants me to go through this again and endure the potential disappointment again. All this creates a lot of tension in me - every day I see girls with perfect bodies who complain about their weight .. the people I love do not accept me as I am .. I want to change for myself, but at the same time I want to know that my parents and friends are ready to love me as well as look. I don't have anyone to talk to openly about this, because I hate discussing my body as a whole ... is it so hard for them to understand you without having to complain?