I love a girl we have known each other since childhood I have had some aspirations for her since then I shared that I love her but things didn't work out she didn't believe me we just wrote casually and nothing more but in me the feelings started to grow a lot over time and plus she has a friend for a long time and I'm not the person who will give her the inclination to part with him to be with me I'm not so brazen I don't mind the friend and she just chose him and I fully understand her and admit it I was somewhat friends with her boyfriend, he once wrote to me not to deal with her, I apologized to him and I stopped, I stopped dealing with her because of her because she didn't look for me after that and I let her do so because the story is longer I have the feeling that if I reveal a little more people in it will know each other.Problem that we haven't written and seen with the girl in question every 8 months to forget her and it doesn't work I tried what I didn't block her everywhere I just can't get out of my mind I can't accept the fact that I'm not her and I can't be with her because our paths are different they will hardly cross and that's it I know and it eats me from the inside every day this feeling I recently had black thoughts of suicide because I just can't live without it for nothing I have no desire everything is meaningless to me only when I'm on something then it's not in my head I know that so nowhere I will not get enough of this I write here I will ask you to upload my story and I apologize forilliteracy no one understands me I was left alone with almost no hope for life in me I will be grateful if you give me some advice on how to deal with this situation
1 lilly_aura answered
How can you do this to someone else is unnecessary.