Total Failure

Today I had an exam in German. It consisted of two parts - reading comprehension and writing and we had a total of 120 minutes. I can say that I was quite well prepared, because I also went to lessons where we did much more difficult texts. I scored 5 or more on them, which is good, considering how difficult they were (one level above mine). The teacher kept telling me that with such an assessment I could not help but enter one of the two classes in which you have the opportunity to get a diploma in language. Two days before the exam, I was watching a movie about why people fail. It really had a big impact and I just calmed down and I was sure I would manage and the moment of truth came. Reading comprehension was not difficult and I managed to do everything without a single question, but it took me too long - about 50 minutes, after which I breaded! I sat for a long time and did not know what to write on the second task, given that I had not yet written 2-3 questions from the first. I finally managed to write about 300 words on the second, but I didn't give what I was really capable of. I do not attribute it to ignorance, but to panic. I could have performed much better and decently if I hadn't worried and it hadn't paralyzed me. I used very easy and repetitive words, given that I knew a lot of expressions and could defend my position much better, but time just flew fast. Not to mention that I already know about a certain mistake ... and in any case I will have more ... In short, I am very disappointed because I failed. I am ashamed of myself, my family and my teacher. I want to emphasize a few things;

1. For the first time, I failed an exam like this - I froze and made many mistakes.

2. I lost a lot of time worrying.

3. I've never been so worried about an exam before. Always before, but not on him. I think it's because of the movie I was watching, and it said that we shouldn't worry that we wouldn't succeed, and I did that before the exam, but also during.

4. I will have two more sure opportunities to qualify in the upper classes for these groups, but if the same thing happens to me again ... I try not to dramatize because I am convinced that if I think of it and experience it as a failure, I will never I can deal with difficulties and forget them. I believe that this will be an earring in my ear, but I am afraid that my parents may think that I am hiding behind thoughts like "Every evil for good." And the like, although so far they do not quarrel and support me. I know that in principle it is so, but I really had high hopes for a decent performance and in fact many other people did, and I failed. Yes, it's really too early to say how big a failure it is and it may turn out that I did well, despite my writing style, but I'm disappointed. If I had performed better, at least I would have known that I had done my best and not be so stressed.

Please give me some advice or share your experience on the subject, because I am very confused and if I had calmed down at least a little, now I am starting to feel terrible. Help me. Thank you in advance. that I did well, despite my writing style, but I'm disappointed. If I had performed better, at least I would have known that I had done my best and not be so stressed. Please give me some advice or share your experience on the subject, because I am very confused and if I had calmed down at least a little, now I am starting to feel terrible. Help me. Thank you in advance. that I did well, despite my writing style, but I'm disappointed. If I had performed better, at least I would have known that I had done my best and not be so stressed. Please give me some advice or share your experience on the subject, because I am very confused and if I had calmed down at least a little, now I am starting to feel terrible. Help me. Thank you in advance.