To Fall From A Height Hurts Terribly ...

Hi, I don't know if it will be easier if I write it, but I think at least I won't lose. I'm a little over 30 now, but it all started when I was 21 and got married. I had dreams for children and family but after 8 years of marriage I had nothing. What followed was a long and painful divorce and grief that still weighs on me to this day. But that's not what I want to share. A year or two later, I began to recover from depression. I had and still have everything. I am a beautiful woman, quite young. I have fans of all ages. I am absolutely independent.

Prestigious high-paying profession, own home, car, great parents. I love having fun. I'm good, even too naive. I am dedicated, but also too sensitive. And on top of all that, I felt lonely and unhappy. I had a lot of relationships, but I wasn't in love, I just imagined I wasn't alone. There were those who used my condition to feel good. Until one day last year, when I met him most unexpectedly. It was mutual love at first sight. After a week, I had the feeling that I had known him all my life. He was everything I wanted and was actually quite ordinary. I didn't want much, I just wanted to fall in love. Every day I woke up thinking I was happy and couldn't believe it. He loved me too, it was evident in his eyes in his actions.

We lived together with me. We met our parents, friends, colleagues. We were all very happy. Both mine and his are great. They accepted us as their own children, they did not divide us. I met everyone around him and we all liked him. It was a fairy tale. Travel, entertainment ... In the meantime, it so happened that we were promoted at the same time, etc. True, that he had to spend more time at work, he also worked at home, and his time for me decreased, but I understood him and I was not angry. We made plans for the future, we solved everyday problems, etc. In difficult moments I was by his side, he was by my side. Everyone thought we might get married ...

And so until the last second. But as people say, very good is not good. About a week ago we were at a family celebration (of his family). Everything went well, we had fun, or so I think. The night was great. The next day we got up (we were with his parents) and as usual, he made me coffee, we talked a little with the other usual things, what we plan to do, that we will repair the car, where we will go next week, etc.

Then we went home. He started reading a book. Nothing unusual. At one point I went to him just to tease him for a while. And at that moment he left the book and some outpourings began that he was not feeling well, that he was true to me and wanted us to part. The only explanation was that he couldn't give me enough time with the new job, and he couldn't give me what I wanted. And he just got up, packed his bags, and left. He returned to his parents, who were no less shocked than I was. I don't want to describe what this caused me and how I feel at the moment. For an hour to turn your life around. To come down from heaven, not to fall from heaven, and without knowing why, without even thinking about it. Not just one person left, dreams, plans, and many other people we liked. Now I try to comfort myself with work. I will not return to that apartment. I'll probably change it. But if someone was stuck in a similar situation or was on the other side, can you give any guess as to what happened.

What could make someone who was in love (I'm sure) do that? Was he scared (he had never been so seriously involved) or maybe I insulted him in some way or did something he didn't like. But he never shared or remarked to me. Or maybe he thinks it will hinder his career, even though my job takes a lot of time. He said the reason was that I shouldn't blame myself, even though I don't think so. I'm sure there's no other woman, at least not yet. I had no suspicions or reason for that. Thank you What could make someone who was in love (I'm sure) do that? Was he scared (he had never been so seriously involved) or maybe I insulted him in some way or did something he didn't like. But he never shared or remarked to me. Or maybe he thinks it will hinder his career, even though my job takes a lot of time.

He said the reason was that I shouldn't blame myself, even though I don't think so. I'm sure there's no other woman, at least not yet. I had no suspicions or reason for that. Thank you What could make someone who was in love (I'm sure) do that? Was he scared (he had never been so seriously involved) or maybe I insulted him in some way or did something he didn't like. But he never shared or remarked to me. Or maybe he thinks it will hinder his career, even though my job takes a lot of time. He said the reason was that I shouldn't blame myself, even though I don't think so. I'm sure there's no other woman, at least not yet. I had no suspicions or reason for that. Thank you But he never shared or remarked to me. Or maybe he thinks it will hinder his career, even though my job takes a lot of time.

He said the reason was that I shouldn't blame myself, even though I don't think so. I'm sure there's no other woman, at least not yet. I had no suspicions or reason for that. Thank you But he never shared or remarked to me. Or maybe he thinks it will hinder his career, even though my job takes a lot of time. He said the reason was that I shouldn't blame myself, even though I don't think so. I'm sure there's no other woman, at least not yet. I had no suspicions or reason for that. Thank you