If you want to skip my "background", go straight to the 3rd paragraph. With this story, I want to share my "experience" and at least make those who act without thinking about what it would cost others. I am a girl, 17 years old. I did well in school, but my communication with classmates, teachers and other people in general has always been terrible. I don't have friends, I don't talk to people unless we have to say something to each other. At first glance, it seems that it is not something serious - people do not like me and what of it, I will not try to like them by force. But over time, that started to affect me very badly. After they started behaving obviously negatively towards me, for example, as I stood across from some girls to start looking at me, whispering something and laughing; or the boy which passes by friends and shouts at them "Look at her, what is ugly." You can take as an example the girl who says that I had great self-confidence and where it came from, and I am neither mocking anyone nor anything. Because of their taunts, I started looking for the reasons and every time I found a problem in myself - that I was ugly, stupid, that I shouldn't be human, that I was a complete failure when everyone made friends, and I was always neglected - the school outsider. When someone needed to boost their self-esteem, they always attacked me. I didn't know why that made me even angrier. I didn't want to go to school. When they made fun of me, when I came home I looked in the mirror for hours, thinking what was wrong with me. At one point I decided to go on a self-study, but then I started to feel like the teachers didn't like me and I wanted to drop out of education altogether. I got up in the morning, I didn't feel like doing anything, I just thought about what a failure I was, I thought about all the 'flaws' I had and how, even if I wanted to, I couldn't change them. It was the same before I went to bed. It has happened to everyone to fall in love. That feeling was awful to me. If I liked someone in the second second, I already knew that I had no chance with this person, I didn't find any sense in being in love. I didn't want him to make fun of me either. I started avoiding people just so I wouldn't force my ugly face on them and spoil their mood. Somehow I lost the meaning to do what I loved to do. As a "hobby" I only listen to music, and before I painted, I liked to watch different movies, dance, play sports. I was suffering from depression maybe, I haven't mentioned it to anyone. I got up in the morning, went to school, came back, had dinner, went to bed - the other days the same. I ate only once a day. I lost weight, I threatened even more. A few days when I ate I vomited after 5 minutes, then I gave up eating. But that didn't help either, it felt like I was going to vomit, but I couldn't help but leave me. It was hard for me to get out of bed, I wanted to fall asleep and not feel sick, but I couldn't. I went to the doctor, got better and already started living a healthier lifestyle. But the feeling that I was rejected by everyone did not leave me and now every time I see people I avoid them and I want the conversation to end as soon as possible, if there is one. If the moderators approve of this post and read my story, I hope you understand how one person feels when rejected by others. How does it feel like, when everyone makes fun of you without you pushing them with anything. And there are more severe cases of ridicule than mine. No one can know how a person will react to such events and what pressure he is under from others. So before you make fun of someone, think about the consequences. The person you are making fun of may look strong, but don't be fooled by his appearance. There is no way to know that, for example, by calling someone fat, you are encouraging them to start a diet that can bring them a problem. But this ignorance of yours does not change the result. Would you accept that you are the reason for this Probably not. So don't make fun of anyone. I have experienced it on my back and I tell you it is awful, this feeling is awful. It can leave deep scars and is not something that goes away in a few hours or days. And there are more severe cases of ridicule than mine. No one can know how a person will react to such events and what pressure he is under from others. So before you make fun of someone, think about the consequences. The person you are making fun of may look strong, but don't be fooled by his appearance. There is no way to know that, for example, by calling someone fat, you are urging them to start a diet that can bring them a problem. But this ignorance of yours does not change the result. Would you accept that you are the reason for this? Probably not. So don't make fun of anyone. I have experienced it on my back and I tell you it is awful, this feeling is awful. It can leave deep scars and is not something that goes away in a few hours or days. And there are more severe cases of ridicule than mine. No one can know how a person will react to such events and what pressure he is under from others. So before you make fun of someone, think about the consequences. The person you are making fun of may look strong, but don't be fooled by his appearance. There is no way to know that, for example, by calling someone fat, you are urging them to start a diet that can bring them a problem. But this ignorance of yours does not change the result. Would you accept that you are the reason for this? Probably not. So don't make fun of anyone. I have experienced it on my back and I tell you it is awful, this feeling is awful. It can leave deep scars and is not something that goes away in a few hours or days. No one can know how a person will react to such events and what pressure he is under from others. So before you make fun of someone, think about the consequences. The person you are making fun of may look strong, but don't be fooled by his appearance. There is no way to know that, for example, by calling someone fat, you are encouraging them to start a diet that can bring them a problem. But this ignorance of yours does not change the result. Would you accept that you are the reason for this? Probably not. So don't make fun of anyone. I have experienced it on my back and I tell you it is awful, this feeling is awful. It can leave deep scars and is not something that goes away in a few hours or days. No one can know how a person will react to such events and what pressure he is under from others. So before you make fun of someone, think about the consequences. The person you are making fun of may look strong, but don't be fooled by his appearance. There is no way to know that by calling someone fat, for example, you are urging them to start a diet that can bring them a problem. But this ignorance of yours does not change the result. Would you accept that you are the reason for this? Probably not. So don't make fun of anyone. I have experienced it on my back and I tell you it is awful, this feeling is awful. It can leave deep scars and is not something that goes away in a few hours or days. The person you are making fun of may look strong, but don't be fooled by his appearance. There is no way to know that by calling someone fat, for example, you are urging them to start a diet that can bring them a problem. But this ignorance of yours does not change the result. Would you accept that you are the reason for this? Probably not. So don't make fun of anyone. I have experienced it on my back and I tell you it is awful, this feeling is awful. It can leave deep scars and is not something that goes away in a few hours or days. The person you are making fun of may look strong, but don't be fooled by his appearance. There is no way to know that, for example, by calling someone fat, you are urging them to start a diet that can bring them a problem. But this ignorance of yours does not change the result. Would you accept that you are the reason for this? Probably not. So don't make fun of anyone. I have experienced it on my back and I tell you it is awful, this feeling is awful. It can leave deep scars and is not something that goes away in a few hours or days. So don't make fun of anyone. I have experienced it on my back and I tell you it is awful, this feeling is awful. It can leave deep scars and is not something that goes away in a few hours or days. So don't make fun of anyone. I have experienced it on my back and I tell you it is awful, this feeling is awful. It can leave deep scars and is not something that goes away in a few hours or days.
1 KatyAndJames answered
I know what it is! I go this way, although in my case I have real girlfriends and the taunts are lighter! But no one can fuck with your character and appearance! After all, it's you and everyone deserves happiness! It's their mother!