This Constant Hunger For Sweets Drives Me Crazy

The Story

Hello ... I don't know where to start. I'm a girl, 17. I've had problems with sweets for almost a year. I gained an awful lot of weight and I want to lose it, but I keep failing. I can say that I don't eat junk, I don't eat chips, fast food, etc. But it's 10 or so in the morning, and I've already eaten half a jar of liquid chocolate. I usually eat 3-4 chocolates a day, apart from that I sometimes reach for waffles, gingerbread, cupcakes. Basically anything that has sugar. I endure one day and the next I fail again. I am disgusted with myself, when I look in the mirror I see a pig. A month ago I wanted to lose 9 kg to get back to normal, not to be skinny, but just normal. Well, they're already 13. I don't stop gaining weight. I shared with my mother, she said it was nonsense to stop being so weak, but just give up the sweet and point. I am 1.66 tall and weigh almost 70 kg, and in April 2012 I was 45. I am sad when I look at myself, and when I am sad what I do - I eat jam. My grandmother took me to the doctor, they did tests on me, I have nothing ... at least not physically, but emotionally I can't look at chocolate. I used to take it from my brother's money box when I didn't have money to buy chocolate. I've talked about how I only feel with my boyfriend, but he doesn't want to help me by saying "Stop, you're fat", he just repeats that he will always love me, no matter how I look. We've been with him for an awful long time, you could say we've been boyfriends since we were little and we're still in love, we're inseparable, but I'm afraid I hate him. I'm trying to breathe on my own, I'm trying to hate it (chocolate), but each attempt ends as follows - me, at the box office of Billa, with 3 chocolates and 2 boxes of biscuits. My record is about 7 in one day. Chocolate is both my favorite thing in this world and the most hated. I hate him, I hate myself for what I'm doing ... and I just wanted to share somewhere in the hope that someone would open my eyes, show me what a pathetic creature I am, because I see him, but I can't take myself in hand and to stop. I want my old body, I want to like myself, not to look like a bison, but I don't know how to gather strength and not taste sugar again. :( to show me what a pitiful being I am, because I see him, but I can't take myself in hand and stop. I want my old body, I want to like myself, not to look like a bison, but I don't know how to gather strength and not taste sugar again. :( to show me what a pitiful being I am, because I see him, but I can't take myself in hand and stop. I want my old body, I want to like myself, not to look like a bison, but I don't know how to gather strength and not taste sugar again. :(

Last Updated
September 27, 2020
Author:
toofaced

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