Hello. I've been writing for a few days and I'm stopping somewhere, or I'm sad or I'm thinking that no one will understand me. I am lonely. Fuck ... I'll explain the situation I'm in as briefly and clearly as possible. I hope you can help me. I'm an injured 20-year-old girl. 3 images stand behind me and try to manipulate me - these are my father, ex and my love. I have been a different person for 1 year. One year ago, my father and I always had a good relationship. And normally, I was a dream daughter. I don't go to discos, I prefer books. Full excellent in school and even in 1 semester from the university. The former ... We were together for 3 years. He pampered me with everything, pampered me. However, she did not want to sleep with me (because I was a virgin). He didn't want to hurt me. Painful people, a lot of pain. For 3 years he failed to sleep with me, and not because I was pulling at him, he just couldn't. It was the former who led me into a darker world. The world of drugs. With conviction, if it's bad for you, will I give it to you, kitten? And I have been at the bottom for 1 year now. For one thing I can thank him that he is always and will be by my side. And most importantly, he introduced me to my true love. They were friends, the three of us were together every day. Shaking all day and all night. But I fell in love. I felt a shiver. And so the former became the former. My true love, I'm a little sorry that it was the drugs that brought us together.
I did and continue to do everything for him. Love it. My father doesn't like my true love, he doesn't like my ex anymore. He found out about the drugs. Also, normally from 70 kg in 2 months, I lost 20. I used it every day. I haven't gone to bed in 7 days. My father keeps threatening to beat my love. And he is really capable of regret. The ex keeps calling me and trying to make me love him. In my most difficult moments, he is always the person who tries to help me. But my feelings for him will never be love. My love, oh my love. Wait and wait for me to go. I struggle with my teeth and nails to get better.
Getting rid of drugs, I realize it's our problem. I work. I give everything I have for him. Your last bite. I'm trying to cope. And on the other hand, I get insults like garbage, squirrels, simple, slow, dead dogs. We are crushing. He tramples me. I understand. BUT why when he smiles at me and tells me that he loves me all the anger disappears? I'm afraid to go. I have nowhere to go. I have no one. Except for those three characters who claim to love me. In fact, 3 hurt me, manipulate me, and make me feel sad. They make me feel like garbage. Give me some advice, please. What can I do to make myself feel better? 132
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Psychologist..