There Is A Quality In Me That I Do Not Like!

The Story

I'm 16 years old. There is a trait in my character that is good on the one hand - it shows that I am a real person, but on the other hand it hurts me a lot. I have a friend for 2 years, he is 3 years older, we get along great, I am grateful to him for everything. My family is not perfect. I live, my mother, my father and my brother. My brother is also 3 years older than me. In short, my parents, especially my mother, take care of him more, pamper him more ... maybe because she is her first child, I don't know ... I feel neglected and somehow "unwanted". They take care of me too, they don't show that they have more sympathy for one child than for the other, but still I am one of the children and I notice it. I've always paid attention to the little things that most people ignore, that's why I'm always hurt. The slightest quarrel with one of these people upsets me, makes me feel guilty, unwanted and always crying. I hate crying especially in front of these people, I've never wanted to be so sensitive, but I'm like that and I don't know exactly how to change it. I don't think I need to look at the small detailed so much, to be more indifferent to everything. I don't want to show these tears to anyone, but I don't know how ...

Last Updated
October 19, 2020
Author:
alina_200

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