And I am convinced that there is something ... there are no coincidences. It happened to me too. So there was a boy I liked for 1 year, I was not in love with him, but I was very attracted to him. All I could see was that he was glancing at me, once in an hour he wanted to take my notebook to see if I would notice ... but then I didn't do anything, I just turned to the other side and then we hardly talked. This was at the beginning of the school year .. at the same time I wrote to him at the same time, but we only wrote some general things for 5 minutes. With this I want to explain that it seemed that things would not work out .. I saw him he teased with other girls, we didn't pay attention ... just to catch him staring at me sometimes, but I thought I was imagining. At one time I just couldn't stand just standing and looking at him without being able to hug him, to touch him. I was jealous of him too ... I was just sick because I was trying to forget him and I couldn't. I've had unshared feelings before and I just didn't want the story to happen again. One night at 1 and something I was watching something on FB before going to bed ... and I came across a photo where it was marked. He was with a company I had been with before. That is, we had common acquaintances. And I had an idea ... to try to get closer to them and get into one company, because I'm in 1st grade with him, he moved to the second year since I was in class, they set him up against me somewhat, because they don't like me very much. And those with whom he was in the picture at least didn't hate me and so I decided that if I join this company, there will be no one to set it against me and I will be able to do something ... I decided to try when the summer vacation starts, because these came out mostly then .. they were out every day and I thought he would be with them. The end of the school year was coming. Then my friends started telling me that he was staring at me. It turned out that I obviously did not imagine and I was even more motivated to carry out the plan. He finished school and the problems started, things were not exactly as I imagined. Neither he nor these were in the usual place, I had not seen him for 2 weeks. One because I didn't find him, but I often go out, and the second because I was at sea with a friend / we were at camp /. I went home and somehow we met, we greeted each other. But things still did not go as planned. He didn't go out with them so much, but some others I almost didn't know. Only on the face. I didn't know what to do, but I wanted to be with him. I thought about him all the time, and when I saw him he just said "hello" I wanted to pounce on him in front of everyone. At the end of the summer, I noticed that his friends were looking at me strangely, he had obviously told them something about me. I didn't know what was going on. Just to add that I had written to him in the summer around August 15, we wrote each other 20 minutes of common things and he went to bed. By August 20, I was, as always, in a place where I knew he was coming out and waiting to be given the opportunity to speak. I was just about to leave when I heard someone ask me "why are you passing me", laughing. It was him. With his friends. I gathered some courage and went to them, we talked. I couldn't believe it was happening for him to talk to me ??? We talked a little and went home. A few days later I went to sea with my parents in Greece. On the first night, my life collapsed from something I learned from ASC. фм. Some time ago I asked a friend of his anonymously about him, now I decided to ask him again. His friend said, "Well, reveal yourself to him, because he's going to study in a city farther from our hometown" ... I prayed it was a joke. I thought it was a joke, but it was confirmed to me that it was not. How was it possible, everything happened suddenly. There was no indication before that he would go to study elsewhere. I just didn't know where I was. That meant I wouldn't see him, and I already thought there was heat ... which one species was crushed because of the other school. I started crying out loud, good thing I was in a separate room from ours. I just couldn't calm down .. I wanted him so much, and he had a chance to go far away from me, I would hardly see him .. His friend told me not to write to him anonymously, but on Facebook. I wrote to his friend, he understood me, we talked a little about that boy. I cried all night, I didn't know what to do. Who did not ask. Yes, he really would go to study elsewhere. I was constantly imagining how he was going to study elsewhere, then on FB I saw that he was engaged, I saw pictures of him with girls .. I went crazy, I didn't know what to do .. I was dying of grief .. He had a 5 percent chance to stay, but for me it was like 0 percent. I thought, I thought and finally I decided to admit my feelings to him. I didn't have time to waste, I was in Greece, and when I came home ... he could have already left, so I decided to see him online when I saw him online. I went to bed crying ... the other days I was sick, I didn't want anything ... I cried CONSTANTLY, my parents noticed that I had something, but I didn't tell them what was happening. I couldn't help myself and even shed tears on the street .. I didn't care who was watching me .. I wasn't on my own .. And he was still not on Facebook, I was wasting time. No one could calm me down ... just the last night of my vacation he came online. I wrote to him, he was a little cold, but that didn't stop me. I had planned exactly what to tell him, I did everything according to plan. First I hinted to him that I liked him, telling him that I would miss him if he went to study elsewhere, I had asked him before if what was true about school ... he said it was true. In the end, I mustered up a lot of courage and just wrote to him that I liked him. I shivered ... then I got a terrible shock - he had known for a long time? !!!! I asked him how, and he said that some of his friends had told him, and I knew one of them. And I immediately remembered that these guys knew from some of my friends. I freaked out. But the worst was just coming ... he said it wouldn't work, that he knew I was sick, but it just wouldn't work. I died on the spot ... he cut me off. Then he went to bed. I wanted not to be alive, I stood in one place for half an hour, I didn't move ... I stayed up almost all night, and we had to leave early in the morning ... I couldn't sleep like people. A few days later I was like a ghost. I wondered why .. there was hope, he showed me in some way that he liked me, and then "it won't work" .. I prayed that he would at least really go to study elsewhere, that if I saw him, because we are in the same class. I was going to calm down .. I started to calm down a bit, I was constantly adding some guys to Facebook, they were adding me, I was writing to them, somehow I wanted to fill the gap ... I was dating other guys too. I was dating friends .. but I just wasn't like before .. like something in me died .. To my surprise - one day I saw him in the city, he had obviously not left, which was strange because they had told me that the last week of vacation should already be at the other school ... I thought maybe later. At one point I was angry and wanted to give it back to him. I was thinking of finding a boy, pretending to be my boyfriend and he would see me with "my boyfriend" .. for some reason it still didn't work .. with a few guys I tried this plan, but things kept fucking and we didn't go out .. I thought that this is a stupid joke of fate .. again. I had made a similar plan before, not to him, but to another boy, and I wondered why it didn't work out then. It's as if God didn't give me ... but why? And here is the unexpected turn of fate - HE wrote to me one evening, on September 14. I couldn't believe it, he asked me "are you here", I told him "yes" .. he started explaining to me that he wanted something from me that he wasn't sure I would want. I asked him what he wanted ... he started to explain to me, that I was very attracted to him and the like .. he wrote me a few and then offered me to have sex. I couldn't believe what I saw and I asked him if he was drunk .. he told me that he drank very little, but it didn't matter .. I was dying to accept his offer, because it aroused me terribly and sometimes when I saw it I I was coming to rape him; dd .. but I said I would think .. We started school, he was still in my class .. I couldn't believe what happened .. he wanted to be with me somehow, although before that he cut me off so brutally .. then he wrote to me a few more times, we glance at each other, on a trip he made some hints to me .. but I can clearly see that he is worried about something. He always writes to me when he is drinking, we just stare in person, and in the chats he tells me that he will come to talk to me about it at school / I wanted to do that / .. but I'm afraid to talk to him about it, and obviously him ... we just look at each other .. well, then maybe we'll gather courage .. but the most important thing is that from all the work I realized that there is nothing accidental .. He only gathered the courage to write to me even drunk, because I admitted to him that I like him .. he told me himself. And if it wasn't for the other city ... I wouldn't have the courage to admit it. And everything seemed hopeless. It's just that obviously some things are standing in space and waiting for the right moment to happen. I agree to be with him only for sex, and without that I understood what it is and if we had a relationship, we would not like each other. Better just for sex. You guessed it, I'm not unhappy anymore, but I feel better than ever :)) in the future we may gather courage .. but the most important thing is that I understood from the whole thing that there is nothing accidental .. He only gathered the courage to write to me even drunk, because I admitted to him that I like him .. he he told me himself. And if it wasn't for the other city ... I wouldn't have the courage to admit it. And everything seemed hopeless. It's just that obviously some things are standing in space and waiting for the right moment to happen. I agree to be with him only for sex, and without that I understood what it is and if we had a relationship, we would not like each other. Better just for sex. You guessed it, I'm not unhappy anymore, but I feel better than ever :)) in the future we may gather courage .. but the most important thing is that I understood from the whole thing that there is nothing accidental .. He only gathered the courage to write to me even drunk, because I admitted to him that I like him .. he he told me himself. And if it wasn't for the other city ... I wouldn't have the courage to admit it. And everything seemed hopeless. It's just that obviously some things are standing in space and waiting for the right moment to happen. I agree to be with him only for sex, and without that I understood what it is and if we had a relationship, we would not like each other. Better just for sex. You guessed it, I'm not unhappy anymore, but I feel better than ever :)) And if it wasn't for the other city ... I wouldn't have the courage to admit it. And everything seemed hopeless. It's just that obviously some things are standing in space and waiting for the right moment to happen. I agree to be with him only for sex, and without that I understood what it is and if we had a relationship, we would not like each other. Better just for sex. You guessed it, I'm not unhappy anymore, but I feel better than ever :)) And if it wasn't for the other city ... I wouldn't have the courage to admit it. And everything seemed hopeless. It's just that obviously some things are standing in space and waiting for the right moment to happen. I agree to be with him only for sex, and without that I understood what it is and if we had a relationship, we would not like each other. Better just for sex. You guessed it, I'm not unhappy anymore, but I feel better than ever :))
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Thanks for sharing this, I liked it. Very nice story! For the first time I read such a long post, with bated breath. In a way, it reminds me of my story. http://spodeli.net/4/story-48790.html I think the first comment (of Ray) applies to both of you. Be happy!