The Lump That Stood On My Throat

The Story

Hello! I need advice, criticism, I accept and I am open to everything. I am 25 years old, married to a wonderful person with whom we have a big difference. He is an amazing man, caring, gentle, kind. We love each other infinitely, I just pray that we are healthy and that the story we experience will last forever. BUT he is divorced and has a child from his first marriage. A caring and dedicated father. He helps as much as he can and as far as the circumstances allow. He has never forced his relationship with the child on me, he has not pressured me, but I have a sense of guilt. Some say that if you love a man, you will love his child. God, this man is everything to me, I love him with all my heart, but I don't feel anything for this child. I have no desire to meet him when they go out together, I am either a hairdresser or a manicurist or I find some other occupation. The child does not come home, because the mother wants so at this stage. When I decided that I would be with this person, I was aware of everything, I didn't have the wedding I dreamed of and, no matter how silly it sounds, at times it bothers me terribly. There are many other things that weigh on me that are stuck in my throat like a lump and I want to pour them out. He tries his best to make me happy, to see me smiling, there is not a day that he doesn't make a small gesture to show me how much I mean to him and what I mean. Become petty. Sometimes I say to myself, what can I want, not to have the wedding I wanted, but I have the love and respect of the man next to me. I have the most wonderful, harmonious relationships, I have the comfort and tranquility I have always sought in a man. I have a burning passion and desire for me every time he looks at me and back. My friends they got married for piles of money and divorced a year later. What I want Which is more important. You will say love, yes, I know it too, but what to do in the moments when that lump in my throat will suffocate me, when I think, what would it be like if everything started anew for both of us. Wedding, first child, etc. I made many sacrifices and lost many things. Every night when we go to bed and hug him, thank God that he met us, that he made me the best gift - I just pray that we are healthy ... everything else will be fine. Give me some advice. Criticize me, help me see things from the sidelines. Thank you dear people. Be very loved and healthy! when I think about it, what would it be like if it all started anew for both of them. Wedding, first child, etc. I made many sacrifices and lost many things. Every night when we go to bed and hug him, I thank God that he met us, that he gave me the best gift - just pray that we are healthy ... everything else will be fine. Give me some advice. Criticize me, help me see things from the sidelines. Thank you dear people. Be very loved and healthy! when I think about it, what would it be like if it all started anew for both of them. Wedding, first child, etc. I made many sacrifices and lost many things. Every night when we go to bed and hug him, thank God that he met us, that he made me the best gift - I just pray that we are healthy ... everything else will be fine. Give me some advice. Criticize me, help me see things from the sidelines. Thank you dear people. Be very loved and healthy! help me see things from the side. Thank you dear people. Be very loved and healthy! help me see things from the side. Thank you dear people. Be very loved and healthy!

Last Updated
October 24, 2020
Author:
kissladyy

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