The Latest Feeling For Me

Hello! Quite by chance I came across this site and impulsively decided to share my problem ... The story is as follows ... With "him" we have the same village and we know each other from there, but we have never communicated. The worst thing is that we are both from different cities. One day he found me on Skype and so we started writing to each other. He wrote me that he liked me, which I naturally did not believe. But after a few days and I don't know how, I started to like it a bit. 3 weeks later he left for Africa for 1 month. From there he called me and we wrote to each other on Skype. I entered the chat mostly because of him. When he came back from Africa he came to see me ... he had bought me presents from there, as well as my parents. 1 week later he came to my city again. The next month (March) we met in Sofia where I was at a wedding, and he went there so we could see each other (there are relatives in Sofia). Towards the end of the month we met again this time in his town. Everything was like a fairy tale ... for the first time I met such a nice boy, kind to ours, kind, gentle, romantic, attached to me, everything he did showed that he loved me, and I loved him very much. . He did his best to come and see me, because it was not just a wish, but a financial opportunity. And he really did a lot for this relationship ... He called me several times every day, we talked for hours; he didn't care at all how much money he spent on me. He kept asking how my parents were and sending greetings on and off. Even my mother liked it because it is different from the previous ones. There was maybe only one drawback - I was very jealous, it was unbearable. I rarely go out anyway, and he was constantly jealous. He seemed to have faith in me, and he still doubted who I went out with, who I wrote to ... This gave rise to our constant quarrels, all over Skype. There were a few cases when we didn't fight when he called me. He registered on a dating site just because I had one (and mine was from before we went with him) and I was very annoyed because he wrote comments to various girls and ... you know how jealous a man is when loves ... At one time we got along and stopped with these comments, but always when we were arguing and it started all over again. The essence of my problem is the following ... The boy I love so much made 2 mistakes (big ones), except for the other 3-4 times when I forgave him when we fought because of his insane jealousy. The first mistake I forgave him was that he had written to someone from Pleven and wrote that he did not love his ex-boyfriend (ie me). And the second mistake that I can't forgive him and because of which we have been separated for 2 weeks is that before I went to our village for the Easter vacation, one night he was drunk and one of the villagers was crying something for another boy and my "beloved" hugged her and, as he said, "did not understand when he had kissed her." And what hurts me the most is that I was there with him in the village and he looked me in the eyes without telling me anything. ; (When he told me I had already returned from the village and I didn't believe it, because he had already started teasing me that day and I thought he was doing it to make me jealous, because he had just told me that he wanted me to be at least a little jealous of him After 2 days, however, when I asked him if it was true, he most unceremoniously stated that it was so, at the thought of which I cried all night, cried ... I cried my eyes, I even talked to my mother in the state I was in. I am almost 17 years old and you know how parents react; do not take seriously the things that happen in the hearts of their children in those years. Yes, but I really feel very, very bad, and I get even worse when I see that no one understands me, maybe just 1 person, a girl ...; (; (; (And exactly this man and the boy, and I love why cousins ​​on intricate relationships from the villages fall in. And I don't know why the boy I trusted so much told his cousin about our very personal affairs, which disappointed me a lot ...; (After all this kissing, which for me is infidelity again, we talked on bodies and est told me he was sorry, that he knows it's his fault and will never forgive himself. He asked me never to make his mistake and we even cried together on the phone. My soul confession has become quite long, but I just ... I can't tell the whole story in a nutshell. Please give me advice on what to do, because I have supposedly decided, but ... nz ... I don't know what the right decision will be. ; (; (; (; (; (; (