Hello, I'm 16 .... I don't know where to start .... from my miserable life, from the masks under which I hide from everyone and everything outside the house, I'm the only one there. I swallow everything and every word from anyone who tries to hurt me ... I maintain a cold and introverted attitude towards people, I don't believe in anyone, only music, art, spiritual goals, the mystical calm me down .... I build my own world and I live in it .... in fact I'm almost always sure of who I am ... but sometimes I'm so confused, I don't really know who I am, under all the masks at school, outside .... I'm changing, for the worse, I have built such high and impenetrable walls around me .... which kills me, I don't want it to be like that, I quarreled with all my friends ... because no one just appreciated me, I revealed myself, I did everything for them .. . which I keep in tense situations, it saves me many times .......... and in love ..... ah, this love ... unshared, sinful, forbidden .... it will always be something of the three .... I need love so much, that mutual, burning love, unconditional, pure .... I have so much love in my heart that I need to give to someone .... at the moment I'm even in love, but I have no idea if this person has the same feelings, they say that the eyes are a window to the soul, I strongly believe this statement! I don't stop looking at him, even our eyes meet several times already .... 1 time we held our gaze for a few seconds .... it seemed like a beautiful eternity ............. but it's always just there, I haven't had a relationship for 2 years, every time I pretend to fall in love, I tell myself that the person feels the same and that he probably thinks about me all the time ... to see myself in it ..... I constantly look in which room there is an hour, I pass from there just to see it again, to meet our eyes again .... I have a tendency to idealize the person I love ... this is bad, I know ... because no one is perfect, in the end something always disappoints you ..... so I hope he has feelings for me ... not just part of my idealizing and fantasizing mind .... I strongly hope that this time everything I think and feel is real! ........... I also believe that love will make me a better person and will also give me the incentive and strength to correct my life, to be the one I want ... to be myself everywhere, not just at home ... yet they say that the most driving force in the world is love! ....... so I am asking for advice, advice on how to find out if this is my man .... and how do you know that someone likes you or is in love with you, what is his look ? ... also if someone was in my situation and got away ... let me know how.
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It just happens, someone says it to himself..and I, like you, had a lot of love in my heart..the man I fell in love with at first sight broke me to the core, I'm still with him, he still breaks me, every day. A great love that I thought would make me a better person made me worse ... so judge the person well if you are an introvert, because if something happens in the future, it will probably be the only person who will interest you, you will think about him every day, sleep, you will not sleep. I hope he responds with the love you deserve, because otherwise you will fall into a very nasty circle from which there is really no escape and you will get lost and live gray as I live ... No one deserves this.