The Change

I decided to share one of the stories in my life. In general, I don't know if the story will be interesting to you or if anyone will read it at all. I just wanted to share ... :) I am a girl neither small nor big. I have always had everything in my life, but the thing I don't have is LOVE. Going back 5 years ago I was always surrounded by guys who liked me, loved me, etc. and to this day it is so. I have always accepted them as friends and nothing more. I was just waiting for the right one, as funny as it sounds .... Then I was a happy girl. I was good, I always helped the people around me, I loved to make them happy. I was kind, compassionate, I was good I WAS MYSELF ... UNTIL I MET HIM! The story is very long, but I will tell you briefly. I wanted a man who would change my life forever. Eeee, I got it. It's no coincidence that people say, "Be careful what you wish for, because it can come true." I met the boy in question.

Things happened, we started a relationship and so on. I was happy. I liked it because it was different. (At least it seemed so to me). He was kind at first. We kept going back and forth. Normal things in a relationship. I was dying to be with him, it was good at all. I am one of those people who find it very difficult to express their feelings to another person. Time passed and at one point I looked him in the eye and told him that I loved him very much and that I could not do without him. I shed my first tear in front of him and then things turned 180 degrees. The better I treated him, the more he "crushed" me. "He became the woman, I became the man." I was hurt, I cried, he hurt me again ... and so on. He was clearly having fun, that someone is crying for him and walking on his ass. He didn't like my friends. According to him, they influenced me badly. My Boy was used to being the center of attention. And in front of his friends (who were like most simpletons like him) and in front of strangers and in front of everyone. He took drugs and drank a lot of alcohol. I am firmly against drugs and I have fought with him so much that I finally saw that it didn't make sense and I stopped giving him a reason for anything. He is 4 years older than me. His parents themselves raised him in some strange and wrong way. He thinks he understands everything, that he is number

1. My opinion no longer existed for him. I have to do what he says and listen if I want to have a relationship. When he said that, I couldn't leave him. He had figured out how to play with me and he succeeded. I "knelt down" and agreed. He began to "crush" me even more. He remarked to me that I go to manicures, beauticians, etc. He started to give me an account of the money, because according to him I gave it for nonsense. (just to note WE DON'T LIVE TOGETHER. AND HE DOESN'T GIVE ME THE MONEY) He started hitting me at some point. He had gotten to the point of making me apologize to him for things I wasn't guilty of. My tears were flowing. I was trying to figure out why he was behaving like that. What a woman has to stand by him to respect her. He joked and laughed at my tears. He insulted me every day. More time passed. A year passed, then another. I suffered, but I had already become with him. That good girl was already dead. I was tired of hurting and hurting me. I had forgotten what it was like to love and be loved. Whether I was with him or not didn't matter to me anymore. I was attached to nothing more. He killed everything in me. I began to treat people who loved me the way he treated me. Now, when I look at it, I feel great malice, but I also feel sorry for it.

The human in me is always calling. Although I became him and acquired many of his bad traits, I have always been human. Unlike him. If someone had told me then that I would become like that and that things would turn out that way, I probably wouldn't have believed it. I want to tell all the girls REJOICE AT THE BEGINNING because then everything is very good, but over time things change. I want to tell you one more thing - Never let anyone "trample" you and play with you. Because you will come in my place, and I do not wish it on anyone. When you feel that things are going from bad to worse RUN and look for the right person, with whom you will have a normal relationship and connection. Thank you for reading my story!