That Same Day I Lost Both Of Them. That Catastrophe Shattered My Dreams. That Catastrophe Took Away My Most Precious Creatures.

   I feel for you. But I just don't think the topic is here.

   I've always wondered why so many young people are leaving, why God is doing this, but we will probably never understand. Whatever I tell you won't take away your pain, but I think I'm sure there's a better place somewhere than here, believe me, your family is out there somewhere. Do not give up. Maybe you have another mission on earth. If you need to talk to someone I'm here, email me.

   I'm very bad, I can't forget, I can't remind everything of the past. by the Author

   There is no god.

   You said it yourself, "I'm only 23 years old." That's right, this is a sad part of your life. Look ahead to how many more years you have to live. Do not give up. I know it's hard for you, but this is life.

   By the way, I don't know why, but I cried a little. I was pretty naughty. Let me tell you about me ... After reading your story, I remembered my father, who also died in the distant 92nd, when I was born and I was still a baby. He never touched a cigarette, but died of lung cancer. When I say he didn't touch, I mean he never pulled. I don't know why I'm sad ... I know what's wrong with you ... or I don't know, but I guess. I do not know what to tell you. Whatever I tell you will be meaningless, it will neither help you nor become stronger than my words, but go ahead. Otherwise, I have nothing to lose anyway ... I'm not afraid of failure and that's why I succeed in my hobby and endeavors. And I'm always one step ahead of everyone, even if people don't take it into account and don't appreciate it ... As a kid, I cried a lot about it. And I was sick, because I can never really say Dad ... And I swore that either I would succeed in this life and I would be happy, or I would die too. But I will try in every way. And the interesting thing is that in addition to my father and his father, he also died of lung cancer, that is, my other grandfather. And I even wonder if it's hereditary, even though the doctors said back then that I'm very healthy and I don't have any problems, and I won't. And now I'm a smoker, and I don't care. Really not who knows what smoker, because I smoke 1-2 cigarettes every three days ... but I also train. I have a good body. I have colorful things in my life that charge me. Well, today I'm 20. I live my life and that's ... whatever I think in the past, it stays in the past. I don't know why I'm telling you this in a foreign subject. If I break the rules don't post it ... Boy of 20 :) that either I will succeed in this life and I will be happy, or I will die too. But I will try in every way. And the interesting thing is that in addition to my father and his father, he also died of lung cancer, that is, my other grandfather. And I even wonder if it's hereditary, even though the doctors said back then that I'm very healthy and I don't have any problems, and I won't. And now I'm a smoker, and I don't care. Really not who knows what smoker, because I smoke 1-2 cigarettes every three days ... but I also train. I have a good body. I have colorful things in my life that charge me. Well, today I'm 20. I live my life and that's ... whatever I think in the past, it stays in the past. I don't know why I'm telling you this in a foreign subject. If I break the rules don't post it ... Boy of 20 :) that either I will succeed in this life and I will be happy, or I will die too. But I will try in every way. And the interesting thing is that in addition to my father and his father, he also died of lung cancer, that is, my other grandfather. And I even wonder if it's hereditary, even though the doctors said back then that I'm very healthy and I don't have any problems, and I won't. And now I'm a smoker, and I don't care. Really not who knows what smoker, because I smoke 1-2 cigarettes every three days ... but I also train. I have a good body. I have colorful things in my life that charge me. Well, today I'm 20. I live my life and that's ... whatever I think in the past, it stays in the past. I don't know why I'm telling you this in a foreign subject. If I break the rules don't post it ... Boy of 20 :) that in addition to my father and his father, he also died of lung cancer, that is, my other grandfather. And I even wonder if it's hereditary, even though the doctors said back then that I'm very healthy and I don't have any problems, and I won't. And now I'm a smoker, and I don't care. Really not who knows what smoker, because I smoke 1-2 cigarettes every three days ... but I also train. I have a good body. I have colorful things in my life that charge me. Well, today I'm 20. I live my life and that's ... whatever I think in the past, it stays in the past. I don't know why I'm telling you this in a foreign subject. If I break the rules don't post it ... Boy of 20 :) that in addition to my father and his father, he also died of lung cancer, that is, my other grandfather. And I even wonder if it's hereditary, even though the doctors said back then that I'm very healthy and I don't have any problems, and I won't. And now I'm a smoker, and I don't care. Really not who knows what smoker, because I smoke 1-2 cigarettes every three days ... but I also train. I have a good body. I have colorful things in my life that charge me. Well, today I'm 20. I live my life and that's ... whatever I think in the past, it stays in the past. I don't know why I'm telling you this in a foreign subject. If I break the rules don't post it ... Boy of 20 :) and I will not have. And now I'm a smoker, and I don't care. Really not who knows what smoker, because I smoke 1-2 cigarettes every three days ... but I also train. I have a good body. I have colorful things in my life that charge me. Well, today I'm 20. I live my life and that's ... whatever I think in the past, it stays in the past. I don't know why I'm telling you this in a foreign subject. If I break the rules don't post it ... Boy of 20 :) and I will not have. And now I'm a smoker, and I don't care. Really not who knows what smoker, because I smoke 1-2 cigarettes every three days ... but I also train. I have a good body. I have colorful things in my life that charge me. Well, today I'm 20. I live my life and that's ... whatever I think in the past, it stays in the past. I don't know why I'm telling you this in a foreign subject. If I break the rules don't post it ... Boy of 20 :)

   Be strong! I also lost my boyfriend. However, we were together for quite a short time. However, I know it is very difficult. To this day, I remember him and I am sad. I kept going, but that didn't mean the pain and shock were gone. I hug you and I wish you to cope somehow :(

   Very nasty, really :(. I wish you to overcome the loss faster or at least not hurt so much, and find a new person to fall in love with and for whom it is worth continuing to live ...

   My loved one suffered a severe accident years ago, I am thankful to God that he recovered, and in fact after that moment he changed his life completely, remarried / he was divorced before the accident /, now he has another child ... in general, change for the better. But the difference with you is that you have lost your most precious beings. Of course, life is unfair. You know, I realized the meaning of this phrase in a difficult time for me, and it is that yes, we have control over our lives, we control its direction, but there are things we have no control over. The only way out is to FULLY ACCEPT THIS FACT. That is, you are now on the path to this realization, and you should be grateful that you exist, think a little more philosophically, ignore the thought of who you are, where you live, who your loved ones are, what you do, and so on. Think about being born, existing, you are human, and you want to be happy. Think you want to contribute by existing. I hope this doesn't sound strange, but the truth is that when something too bad has happened, one has no choice, if one wants to rediscover happiness, one has to think in a more philosophical way, otherwise there is no way. It's the same as the phrase: think positive, but with the difference that in your case such a statement would be too inappropriate, rude and brutal. The truth is that one has to fight with life, it is easy for all of us to say it, yes, it is, but imagine how it is possible for things to be in the long run - in years to find another person to love / I know it sounds absurd at the moment because you love the one you lost /, but the conclusions I have reached in my life are that if a person seeks love, he finds it, no matter how many times he had lost it before. If you fight, one day you will feel a different feeling, one that a person would not feel if he had not gone through something like that, a feeling that you are a strong person and despite everything you do not give up, but walk. Everything will take a long time, but patience is a great human value, it will be easiest for you if you are overactive / doing many activities, volunteering, work, sports, etc./, to give love to everyone, precisely because you do not have it. So one day you will receive a gift, love will come, and with it happiness! it will be easiest for you if you are overactive / doing many activities, volunteering, work, sports, etc./, to give love to everyone, precisely because you do not have it. So one day you will receive a gift, love will come, and with it happiness! it will be easiest for you if you are overactive / doing many activities, volunteering, work, sports, etc./, to give love to everyone, precisely because you do not have it. So one day you will receive a gift, love will come, and with it happiness!

   My beloved left 8 days ago and ... the pain is really terrible, everyone tells me that in time things will calm down, but ... when I look at you 7 months later ... I don't know, hardly ever I will stop suffering for the loss and ... If you want, I can recommend you something to read, which at least one idea to dull your pain ...; (