Terrible, Obsessive Thoughts!

The Story

Hello, everyone! I will try to explain my problem as briefly as possible. It consists of constant obsessive thoughts about a number of negative things - illness, death (appeared for 6 months). I realize that I have had obsessive thoughts almost all my life, because I have been constantly worried about what not .. I could not describe to you what torture for me, to fight with myself, with my thoughts when I imagine how I or my loved ones are dying or are suffering from a number of terrible diseases. When I read or hear that someone is sick of something ... it gets scary, I start to think that I am sick of it too and often it is a fatal disease. These thoughts come again and again, if something new comes up, no matter what, as long as it bothers me enough, I "forget" about all the other obsessive thoughts and start thinking only of him, and when I allow it .. I come back to them again, I read many articles related to this type of thoughts related to hypochondria and OCD, but it is terribly difficult to remain calm when such pictures appear in your mind. Over time, I seem to have learned not to pay so much attention to them that these are just thoughts ... but I'm afraid they won't come true, that's why I fight with myself to get rid of them, and it gets worse. All this makes me feel like a bad person (because through my thoughts, it is as if I will cause bad things to close people). Maybe it would be best to go to the doctor, but at the moment I can't afford it. I'm so young, I'm not even 20, and ... I can't enjoy my success, my life and it's awful! I wanted to share this with you and ask for advice. Thanks to everyone who read my story! I have read many articles related to this type of thought related to hypochondria and OCD, but it is terribly difficult to stay calm when such pictures appear in your mind. Over time, I seem to have learned not to pay so much attention to them that these are just thoughts ... but I'm afraid they won't come true, that's why I fight with myself to get rid of them, and it gets worse. All this makes me feel like a bad person (because through my thoughts, it is as if I will cause bad things to close people). Maybe it would be best to go to the doctor, but at the moment I can't afford it. I'm so young, I'm not even 20, and ... I can't enjoy my success, my life and it's awful! I wanted to share this with you and ask for advice. Thanks to everyone who read my story! I have read many articles related to this type of thought related to hypochondria and OCD, but it is terribly difficult to stay calm when such pictures appear in your mind. Over time, I seem to have learned not to pay so much attention to them that these are just thoughts ... but I'm afraid they won't come true, that's why I fight with myself to get rid of them, and it gets worse. All this makes me feel like a bad person (because through my thoughts, it is as if I will cause bad things to close people). Maybe it would be best to go to the doctor, but at the moment I can't afford it. I'm so young, I'm not even 20, and ... I can't enjoy my success, my life and it's awful! I wanted to share this with you and ask for advice. Thanks to everyone who read my story! but it is terribly difficult to remain calm when such pictures appear in your mind. Over time, I seem to have learned not to pay so much attention to them that these are just thoughts ... but I'm afraid they won't come true, that's why I fight with myself to get rid of them, and it gets worse. All this makes me feel like a bad person (because through my thoughts, it is as if I will cause bad things to close people). Maybe it would be best to go to the doctor, but at the moment I can't afford it. I'm so young, I'm not even 20, and ... I can't enjoy my success, my life and it's awful! I wanted to share this with you and ask for advice. Thanks to everyone who read my story! but it is terribly difficult to remain calm when such pictures appear in your mind. Over time, I seem to have learned not to pay so much attention to them that these are just thoughts ... but I'm afraid they won't come true, that's why I fight with myself to get rid of them, and it gets worse. All this makes me feel like a bad person (because through my thoughts, it is as if I will cause bad things to close people). Maybe it would be best to go to the doctor, but at the moment I can't afford it. I'm so young, I'm not even 20, and ... I can't enjoy my success, my life and it's awful! I wanted to share this with you and ask for advice. Thanks to everyone who read my story! but I'm afraid they won't come true, so I fight with myself to get rid of them, and it gets worse. All this makes me feel like a bad person (because through my thoughts, it is as if I will cause bad things to close people). Maybe it would be best to go to the doctor, but at the moment I can't afford it. I'm so young, I'm not even 20, and ... I can't enjoy my success, my life and it's awful! I wanted to share this with you and ask for advice. Thanks to everyone who read my story! but I'm afraid they won't come true, so I fight with myself to get rid of them, and it gets worse. All this makes me feel like a bad person (because through my thoughts, it is as if I will cause bad things to close people). Maybe it would be best to go to the doctor, but at the moment I can't afford it. I'm so young, I'm not even 20, and ... I can't enjoy my success, my life and it's awful! I wanted to share this with you and ask for advice. Thanks to everyone who read my story! I can't rejoice in my successes, in my life and that's awful! I wanted to share this with you and ask for advice. Thanks to everyone who read my story! I can't rejoice in my successes, in my life and that's awful! I wanted to share this with you and ask for advice. Thanks to everyone who read my story!

Last Updated
August 17, 2020
Author:
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