System Brake

I'm asking for help. I feel harassed. My husband and I had a fight a while ago. Rather, he quarreled with me, I do not raise my voice and do not argue, I just tactfully explained to him that I do not deserve such treatment. This has been the case for years. We are talking, he does not listen to what worries me in his attitude towards me, but when he starts to collect his luggage he softens, and so on until a little time passes and then he becomes bad and aggressive again. Why did we quarrel Well, we were coming home, and when I came in I took the child to wash his hands. Then I hurried to change into my home clothes before going to bed for lunch. He suddenly became angry and started hissing about how I was most important to myself, and instead of putting the child to sleep, I changed, how my first job could always be to change when I got home. Then he said, "Come on, get out of here." I retired to the bedroom to write here ... when he fell asleep, the child came and made me knock on the keyboard and threatened to cut off my internet or cut my computer cable. When my mother writes on the phone in the evening, and I write too, we hardly write to each other, he starts biting "come on, you're texting mom again, do you see" ... and turns to our child and explains how I have my mother and I write to her. And he doesn't communicate with his mother because she hasn't wanted to have him in her life all her life and she feels rejected, so she tries to turn me against my parents. He also often takes my phone so that I don't have access to it, he forbade me to have Facebook, if I do, harassment starts while I delete it and all the internet in the house stops. I have no friends, I contact people only with him, the child, mother, father and work with clients. He constantly presses me, crushes me, when I try to oppose him, he gets angry, clenched his fist, jaw and says that I will do whatever he tells me, that I will cook him pepper and moussaka and I will not open my mouth! A woman had to listen to her husband. He didn't hit me, but several times he allowed himself to hit me against the wall and squeeze my wrist hard or pinch me with malice. I am not happy. I'm always somewhere else, I'm thinking of something else, but the truth is that we manage together and if we move out with the child we won't manage financially. We don't have a car, only he has a car, years ago I wanted to buy one, but he made a whole circus that it was difficult to maintain a car and forbade me. I am also ready for almost anything and for my child not to grow up without a father. I want the best for the child. But I am very sick because of this almost constant harassment. He also lies to people, often if at the checkout in the store the cashier comes in with BGN 15, he is silent and picks them up and does not say, orders goods from the Internet and lies to the seller that it is defective and asks to reduce the price, which is a lie and somehow succeeds. He gets fat with strangers, speaks kindly to them, and at home makes us useless and aggressive. Many years ago, when we met, he was ready to do anything to pay attention to him, and now ... I have no respect. After the child was born, it began to change. Every day he grumbles about how hard it is for him, he wants to rest and drink his whiskey and beer. Every day I carry my child up and down the stairs, I put him in a car seat, he doesn't carry me, my arms are big muscles, my legs too, from the load. He wants to meet his childhood friend and when we go all night I watch the child alone, and he sits at the table and drinks. In the end, he doesn't want to go home, I can barely wind it. Sometimes I want to leave the child for lunch with the grandmother so that we can go somewhere together, he says he doesn't want to, there was nowhere to go and what can we both say ...