Suicidal Thoughts ...

   Dude, it's like I wrote it, only I'm 18. I wish we could talk; /

   I'm a boy 17 years old - I'm younger than you, I don't know if I'll help you with something but at least try it man, start playing sports (fitness, boxing) start going straight cross-country in the parks, train, dress well, 19 years old you are still so young, your girl will come out too, don't worry, don't be afraid of failure, for example to offer someone to come out and refuse you and then you will sink, fall, get up and go on, it's hard to know, but I know tighten up, don't just stay inside, go out and sign up for a gym, every day there will be at least 2-3 hours of the day, life is in front of you bro! Success!

   It's as if you described me. If it was that easy, we would have helped ourselves, but ... otherwise I fully understand G20

   For me, you need a friend to talk to, to share with, to have contact with someone and you will see that you will calm down to some extent. I am your age and I am ready to help.

   A different step from the stereotype. If you get up in the morning and turn on the computer, get up and take a shower tomorrow. By giving all your energy and purposeful thinking to prevent the slightest change, a kind that is not in your imagination, you make ten times more effort than necessary to neutralize it in its infancy. The positive thing is that a light is obviously flashing on you, you haven't missed something somewhere. To realize some truths and illusions now. But illusions are false not because they are neglected. Left to exist on their own. Change happens where you put effort into making it happen. From the same lying position in captivity on the monitor is there a moment not to make adjustments in the steps of someone else. Adjustments that are unnecessary. They neither upgrade anyone nor succeed or have the potential to bring pleasant notes to the current.

   Bach the same, it's a chemical imbalance in the brain. I was helped by a psychiatrist with pills, and then a psychologist and I worked on my resocialization. And here I am, I came out as a winner. I am happy now. My advice is to seek professional help. Here it is impossible to solve this serious problem with 2 sentences. Specialists know their job. Try it, and the bullet won't escape.

   What you describe is achieved with bloody efforts, destinies and identities are sacrificed and invested to be as it is .. Here, here, peace, freedom and peace. Here is the trust that is given to you and how you justify it. Here is the most important and valuable thing you chose to be yours. Niama has something else and was it worth more than that? There is no. You have done me the greatest good we have ever met, namely that you have cut me off. I'm fine and the more the mentoring and the corrections that I didn't violate are reduced, the more the senses smell the life. you have the freedom to be gone. Do not pretend anymore, because all your needs are provided, things are identical to your desire. You don't pretend to feel sick and feel sorry for everything you wanted. I've been fighting over small things for months. I will never accept that this happens in real life, in the physical dimension of humans. ?? Me?? . It's like a virtual story about psychopaths who commit cyberbullying on the scale of social experience. I deny I deny. Here in the space of zeros and ones can. But here it is. I look around and stand up. Drink a sip of cold water. That's right. This is true around me and this is right now. For anytime. Everything is dead, and on the net, except to experience his death once more, I don't see anything else. There are things. I want to give her back everything from before. Maybe if I started from AB step by step I could have something. But I firmly and stubbornly do not believe that I will not suffer this time either Here in the space of zeros and ones can. But here it is. I look around and stand up. Drink a sip of cold water. That's right. This is true around me and this is right now. For anytime. Everything is dead, and on the net, except to experience his death once more, I don't see anything else. There are things. I want to give her back everything from before. Maybe if I started from AB step by step I could have something. But I firmly and stubbornly do not believe that I will not suffer this time either Here in the space of zeros and ones can. But here it is. I look around and stand up. Drink a sip of cold water. That's right. This is true around me and this is right now. For anytime. Everything is dead, and on the net, except to experience his death once more, I don't see anything else. There are things. I want to give her back everything from before. Maybe if I started from AB step by step I could have something. But I firmly and stubbornly do not believe that I will not suffer this time either

   Come on, that's enough. Stop. Normal people live on earth. The most important thing is not to be here. Most importantly.

   I disagree with you on two things. The first is that the person who will understand you was not born. How do you know? You don't communicate with anyone! How can this person appear, even if he has it? And the second - your conviction that there is no love, friendship, meaning, god. At this stage, for you, it does not exist. But then, how can you know? Life is unpredictable. I'll tell you something about myself. Basically, I've never been very religious. But one day, my baby got sick. We took her to a clinic and they told us that she had a very serious inflammation of her throat and ears and immediately went to the hospital. However, they sent us for a second opinion, to another doctor, in the same clinic. He said the same thing - it's for a hospital. We went to the hospital, it was evening. We were told that right now, there was no doctor who could see us. For the night, to alternate some drugs, at some time and early in the morning, let's go to be received. I was very worried, I have a terrible fear of hospitals. I had no choice but to pray to God. I didn't blink all night and prayed for my baby. When the time came, we filled the trunk to the top with luggage and went to the hospital. They examined my child and said that he was fine. But I was sitting and I didn't know how to react, if it wasn't a mistake. My husband began to explain to them that the child was ill, that two doctors had examined him ... And they told him - "sir, the child is completely healthy". Then they laughed and asked us not to come with luggage. So, this is my story. We went home and it was really healthy, as if nothing had happened. This was a miracle for me and my faith grew stronger. Love also exists for me because I love my child infinitely. Even to the point of pain! I never knew there was such strong love. And it will be eternal, for sure. I can say a lot more, but it will take too long. I just want to tell you not to give up. There is a place for everyone under the sun and everyone is obliged to do what he can. Then come good moments that are worth it. But you have to get there.

   No sense in telling you now - I don't wanna ruin the suprise. My question is, if you meet someone like you, what would you tell him? To commit suicide or to continue his life. I can tell you one thing. I'm 16 and I've experienced pain that people my age didn't even suspect, I've been through things that are extremely unusual for a girl my age, but I can tell you one thing - suicide is the most wrong and selfish thing, which you can do. There is always a way out, wherever you are. I suggest that you direct this pain of yours to something valuable, real, that brings you satisfaction, because it is the small things that surround us and we do not appreciate that are the most important and can show you the way. I will give you an example with myself. I turned the whole depression I went through into something inspiring for me and for those around me, namely, I started writing, to draw, to read, to love loneliness, something I didn't realize, and most importantly - I started dreaming, making plans for the future, realizing my dreams, being selfish and thinking about myself, in a circle of jokes . Although there is nothing wrong with loving yourself, if I had not loved myself, I would not be the person I am now. That is why I advise you to turn your back on the framework set by the world, because life begins beyond the limits of the known or beyond the comfort zone. As for the people who think you are ugly - no one needs an ideal who is looking for beauty, he is left alone, you also do not need such people. Although there is nothing wrong with loving yourself, if I had not loved myself, I would not be the person I am now. That is why I advise you to turn your back on the framework set by the world, because life begins beyond the limits of the known or beyond the comfort zone. As for the people who think you are ugly - no one needs an ideal who is looking for beauty, he is left alone, you also do not need such people. Although there is nothing wrong with loving yourself, if I had not loved myself, I would not be the person I am now. That is why I advise you to turn your back on the framework set by the world, because life begins beyond the limits of the known or beyond the comfort zone. As for the people who think you are ugly - no one needs an ideal who is looking for beauty, he is left alone, you also do not need such people.

   I didn't expect to ever find everything I felt written. I can not believe! It's just that I'm a 24-year-old girl. I have a feeling that the more time passes, the worse it gets. Knowledge kills me, so to speak. I know that in the end everything will end, and I live alone, in my world. I had some poems (not very good, but very personal on this). Here, I share them here: Misunderstood The moon passed and left I never saw it. Love passed like that, and I didn't get to know it. Dressed and beautiful, I was waiting for something to happen. But alas, there was nothing. My life is not in order today! Everyone around me was building, I was left alone and I was building a cemetery for all my enemies in the world. But I did not build it for them, but for myself with them. I wanted a strong storm to destroy everything, even me. Just not to look at tomorrow again with my eyes, not to hear the noise with my ears. Don't think again, I don't know, because knowledge kills me! *** Friends Friends are like the leaves of time. You want to be with them, but they run away from you. You are left alone in the room forever, they call you. But no, you're alone now, you're not with them. They want to be with you, but you don't want them. *** The mighty bridge - on the edge of a rope bridge hangs, and below it the dark waves. The lake winks at you, but you seem doomed. Laughter, misfortune and hatred - everything haunts you today, the cable-stayed bridge does not tremble - it hangs under you all the time! You don't want to be there, you run away from it in a whirlwind, but you swing again in a trap, alone without any defense! Finally, these waves, instead of indifference, push them to greatness. And filled with that thought, you run deftly to the water. As if he had entered the bowels of the earth! This is already a pleasure, but alas, you are gone! * And one older than 2012. Yes, for me things never change. *** Contemplation Here, that I look at the sky it is boundless, it is infinite I think, it is wonderful. Here I am watching the waves, the sea, it is so warm, so serene I think, it is magical. Then I look up, the seagulls sing, whisper, fly. This is magic. So colorful and gentle. Here I am. Leaning against the sky, with a mysterious smile on her face what I am - a woman. And here that my soul speaks. Who are you, why are you roaring, tighten up, more gently, and you will die. This is a wonderful story. With an end. But I wake up again. I am burning in the furnace, the blue sky is gone, the sea is missing, the seagulls have flown away. Who is with me? The soul - no! And she's gone. I am doomed to be alone to the end! This is awful, alas, it's the end! *** I can't help you with any general advice, I can only tell you that you are not alone. The bad thing is that I always think I'm alone because I don't know people like you. Today, most people think differently. To find someone different, like me, there is no such thing. Does not exist. And it is not up to the intellect, but to the soul. Most don't care about her, and I, and obviously you, live through her. However, it is difficult to live like this. Personally, I fill my time with plans, projects at the university, hopefully work soon. I have different hobbies, writing, painting, and my university major, but I've always felt weird. And it's not that I don't like what I'm doing. I just don't find people like me. And I haven't been looking for them for several years. I resigned myself and continued. I try to be useful to the world, not to be a consumer, but most do not have these understandings. And that, as you know, leads to battles with windmills. Always misunderstood, always rebellious and always alone. I would advise you to go on with your life. Try to achieve something of your own without being influenced by others. This is the most important. They may envy you, they may not understand you, they may not want you to be happy. And they may not be there. But even if they are there, you should not trust them for that. Man determines his own destiny. Live predestined, but not expected for the multitude. I know most will not understand what is written, but I am writing it for you and the people who recognize it. I am glad that there are still such people. Don't give up and don't commit suicide. Success! but I write it for you and the people who recognize it. I am glad that there are still such people. Don't give up and don't commit suicide. Success! but I write it for you and the people who recognize it. I am glad that there are still such people. Don't give up and don't commit suicide. Success!

   Look for "Mithridates Vates" M 19

   Dude, I'm 19 (almost 20). I have the feeling that I am not here either. All this life, squandering, money way of life ... I am afraid for the future, I am a fish and I am a dreamer and in love. And I have suffered, do not tighten! You have so much to experience from this life. She walked. Go to the gym. University? Meet a colleague. Recover her and smile! There is light in the tunnel! :)

   I'm a girl of 16 almost 17 .... I understand you completely from a young age I have been harassed more than once I have thought about suicide but as you already know this is not the way out. You need someone to talk to, try a stranger. Strangers are the best listeners. What can you do? .... stick notes all over the room write good things about yourself so that you can see them every day repeat to yourself that you are needed in this world that your loved ones need you and for love do not hurry it will always come ^ ^

   Get to work. It doesn't matter what

   How weak you are (I also turn to some people who have commented on the story). You can't claim that there is no love, friendship, gods, etc., because you can't have proof of that. When you have mental problems, you go to a psychologist. Don't go out with the excuse that you don't have money, because I personally went to a psychologist in a private clinic, taking 400 BGN per session, asking him to be free, because I need it and I don't have the opportunity. You just put up with your problems and then complain.